Exploring the Mysteries of Life...

Soliloquy...

2011-08-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

You glisten upon me
Like you hold some secrets...
Entrapped in your cape
That spans across and above.....
Thousands of bits
Of human illumination.....
I know there is more
Beyond the tiresome bindings
Of these vagaries of life......
Yet to look beyond the frames
Of the trained imagination
That we name the "future"....
Is a feat I cant seem to contain
Within my limits....
Perhaps then, your smile
Is all I have.....
To depend on
And know, that somewhere....
You hide someone....
Who will sketch it all out
Before me....
Till then, I content myself
To the confines
Of my random soliloquy....

I desire to call you Life...

2011-08-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

Your laughter in my mind,
A soft caress....
Like a conspiracy of the winds,
Leans close....
And whispers
A few unspoken words that beckon,
And tug at the Me
Within me....
Someone I seemed to have lost...
I see her again
In you....
Come closer still
There are crumbs of love stolen
That hide in your sunshine....
Which I wish to take in.....
Your infectious smell
Tempts my soul,
To dive into those unfathomable depths
I feared looking into.....
Love is walking up to me
Slowly, with padded feet....
And I'm already immersed
You drown me, you misted illusion
And I desire to call you Life.....

Thank you ZNMD...Maaz Kazmi...
My inspirations....

Dreamland City

2011-04-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

I look beyond the window frame

And the one that binds my mind...

Into a world unearthed

Like the ones fairy tales assure...

No white horses though,

Or princes in armor...

Just the same old sun

In a childlike avatar

Hiding its face

Behind unsuspecting ravines

Enticing me into a story

That many leave untold...

Of the life beneath,

The rubble and the poor

A tale that I wish

Was never ignored....

Man plays his dirty games

Yet this is one land,

He failed to foil....

Where crows too

Have a song of their own...

And the golden grains of life

Are willing to brave the world...

This generous giving of nature

I take in, and as I see

I'd like to call this

My Dreamland city...

[Dedicated to the scenic ravines of

Madhya Pradesh,which many condemn...

And the random signboard

that rightly said "Dreamland City"]

Consummation....

2011-02-20T09:17:00.000-08:00

As the night shamelessly bares
The naked moon...
Blushing in all her virginity
At the promiscuous stars...
I stare into the wall....
Peeling away at its paint
To look at the shade inside,
And see what you are made of....
You take no time,
To feel my insides....
But I want you slow....slower still....
I want you to hush
Your craving whispers....
And listen to that distant music.....
Which grips my chords
And renders me speechless.....
You pause to look at me...
I drench you in my gaze...
You touch my lips with a sigh...
And I place them soft
On your moonlit smile....
While eternity holds her breath
To rejoice our consummation.......

Connoisseur...

2011-01-31T09:23:00.000-08:00

A different music

Enchants my threadbare mind

Today, the drops of sunlight

Seem to drench my bones

A life I sought to own...

Is given away

And a last glance

No significance bore....

I torched you with my passion....

The pain in my heart still sore

Fell I at your behest

In the waters of depths untold...

And now I beat around

Endlessly in choppy waves....

While you hide from my silent whispers....

Playing tricks of the deceptive rays.....

Its only those handful of words

Craving an outward release.......

That are faithful to their connoisseur

Relieving me from a listless bait.....

Only theirs is an attempt

To weave a tale

That heals a wish bound soul......

That tenders an arduous wait.....

The Fallen Star...

2010-10-29T10:17:00.000-07:00

Life is ticking away

As I await your summon,

To draw me back in time

When you held me close

To the music of your heart beats....

As for now, I'm stuck

Staring at the clock

Wishing life would levitate

To some celestial form of love....

Where you wouldn't seek reasons

To hide me in your arms......

When I'd seem more to you

Than a cause of forgotten calm.....

Silence takes me back,

To the cruel reality

Of being an untouchable,

In the riches of emotions.....

Where fortune glitters

For those who come with success....

You have turned your back

Evidently, I'm not special.......

And yet, I, the scorned fool

Look at the skies with hope......

Seeking refuge

In their warm expanse.....

When I'm just

A fallen star.....

A brush of the past...

2010-09-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

Its a dark night

And love seems

Like an unlikely refuge....

The stars seem to be lost

In baseless comprehension,

Of why clouds seek

The brighter skies.....

The potholes of her heart

Seem to trip

Many an innocent soul.....

While her gloom flows

An endless turbulant stream....

She knows those thoughts,

Woven in shimmering guilt

Embalming her emotion,

Were never born

To rise at a pure horizon....

But she knows

Somewhere in the blindness...

She must not look back

To steal a glimpse that wont last....

She must not seek more,

Than a brush of her past.....

The Forsaken One...

2010-07-16T07:29:00.000-07:00

As I draw close
To those empty tears....
In a smothered attempt
To shelter your shadows....
Your heart shuts away
My stealthy approach.....
In the misconstrued arches
Of a timeless wait....

As my eyes search yours
To seep into your thoughts...
The wafts of cold
A bittersweet familiarity
Freeze my emotions
To an invisible standstill....

And as I seek the curtains
Of nonchalant cowardice....
Staging a break free
From self imposed chains....
You look at me through the mirror
Emanating pinches of pity.....
Leaving me behind
As the forsaken one....

Refuge...

2010-06-13T11:24:00.000-07:00

A soul unredeemed

In an aimless flight,

Seeks empty solace

In the echoing night....

And the sly skies
Play twinkling tricks
As the mind is absorbed
By countless drenched sighs.....
The thundering wanderers
With unbridled passions
Reflect the musings
Of this vacant moment.....
While I whisper questions,
Into the darkness,
That are stuck in the web
Of a wan isolation.....
Seamless though,
The horizon may seem
The winds have a way
Of holding one close.....
There may not be answers
To the 'whys' of my life
But the uncanny peace
Penetrates my soul.......
While the calm that engulfs,
The chaos of humankind
Heaves the burden
Of listless craving......
I take from the passing hours
A lesson of letting go.....
And dream into the hope
Of cherishable tomorrows......
Where life may bloom
Into well colored realities.....
Where desire heaped hearts
Find a sublime refuge.....

A Gift To a Wanderer....

2010-04-23T10:59:00.000-07:00

An anguished heart

That knows not

The subtle difference

Between breaking free

And letting go....

Wanders alone

In the scavenging crowd

Feasted upon and thrown about....

Yet those eyes seek the solace

That I shall never find....

A trick of emotional treason

That I can never devise....

I know not the alchemist's words

That can blow the grey away,

I know not the golden melodies

That still chain your mind.....

All I can bequeath to you

Is a handful of smiling colors....

A tinge of yellow

To brighten your palette,

A patch of blue

To bless your day......

A stroke of green

To enchant your life....

A streak of purple

To decorate your soul.....

A sprinkle of orange

That restores your hope,

Some smudges of pink

That will help you cope.....

And a rainbow of all the colors I know

To enrich your world

With meaning, with peace...

And breathe back a vigor

In your stifled life

A long forgotten, unconscious need.....

While my heart reaches out

To your unsung songs....

While my care fulfils

Your desires untold....

I will take your hands

And secure them in mine

And lead you ahead

To an unsketched herald.....

Where the early skies

Still await your call...

Where true love still

A strong place holds.....

Dedicated...

The Proposal....

2010-04-04T08:31:00.000-07:00

When destinies entwine
And the world seems,
Like a better place to be in....
When lives come together,
Consummated by joy......
When souls are summoned
For a union sublime......
And the mind unleashes,
A storm of emotions.........
That engulfs the heart......
Enriching my existence......
In that coccoon of ecstasy created
By the mystical tricks of love.....
I beseech you, mon amour
To be mine, now, forever......

Humanity Recall...

2010-02-16T08:54:00.000-08:00

They say,"We revive a dying cause

Breathe life into a race

Heading into extinction...."

While an innocent child

Draws his last, to fulfil

Their desire of vengeance......

They say,"We voice the oppressed

We bring an end called for

To the painful resilience

Of our silent spectators......"

While a woman loses her right

To humane respect

In their cultural stampede.......

They say,"We surrender

Our helpless souls

To the will of God

To protect his bounties"

While their very own

Are sacrificed indiscriminate

On the altar of disoriented conviction.....

I ask on behalf of those,

Who place life before all else.....

To which faith can they belong

Who insult the essence of human ties?

I ask, what belief guides them

Towards clouding each love filled sunrise?

For I am a son of God

As they, no less....

And while they abuse

The verdict of peace,

I wish to address

My misguided brothers,

That every time a life is lost

Your blood has to pay the cost.....

While your exalted religion dies

In that unaware soul's cries.....

Seu Rosto

2010-01-02T02:18:00.000-08:00

I lie here

Unaware of the world,

That spins around my being

Conspiring in smiles....

While I soak in

Your dream-lit visage,

The picture of you,

That I drew when you were away,

Has faded and lost its place.....

Its a new soul I see

Gentler, a surreal fragility......

Like the first sheet of ice,

On a winter lake.....

A smooth contour

With a sensitive base.....

Inciting silent sensations,

With a tumultuous pace.....

Those alluring eyes,

That color me with emotion,

Moisten my own,

While you hold me close.....

Those lips that seek

The tenderness I hide,

Seem to entice my gaze.....

And I silently wish

The heavens to add,

A lifetime more

To this enchanted phase......

And as the first sparkle of gold

Tinges your countenance,

With the heralding day....

I gather in my heart

The nascent ecstasy,

Of a transformed life.....

While I indulge once again,

In the depths of your love.....

Basking in the radiance,

Of your beautiful face.......

The Last Breath....

2009-11-13T05:55:00.000-08:00

The failing light

Of an exhausted day....

Illuminates that stairway,

She had taken to

For an unaccountable time.....

And now it is just the dying fire,

That shakes her numb,

Into conscious existence.....

For what that darkened passage

Leads to, is a misted illusion

She fears penetrating.....

That face, which adorned her happiness......

Those eyes, that reflected her love......

Wait for her presence,

In a heavy-lidded trance......

But the weight of obligation,

Suffocates her being.....

As she seals the door

Behind which crouch,

Paroxysms of timeless memories.....

For it is time...

To walk down that unnerving path....

And hold him in her arms.....

Taking in his last desire,

As he breathes into her

His last breath......

Survival....

2009-11-13T05:48:00.000-08:00

It takes a broken heart,

To hold together the shards

Of bruises in its confines.....

It takes a defeated spirit,

To stand up and attempt.....

Re- attempt to move on.....

It takes soaked eyes,

To build up the strength

To hold back tears......

It takes an aimless soul,

To wander through the ruins of life....

Looking for that goal,

Which illuminates the path ahead......

What but a haul of nightmares,

Can teach us the value,

Of the "sweet dreams"

Whispered by an unaware friend?

What but a quicksand

Of never ending cycles,

Can describe to you,

The necessity to hold on?

It may seem unforgiving,

That fate should drive you

On the rubble, conscious of the rough...

It may mighty be formidable....

To fathom the depth

At which life, in its whimsical ways,

Will stop playing cruel games at last.....

But what do you find,

When you open up the chaos of memories,

For your world to see?

You find how little

You attempted to give up....

You behold how you never

Assumed you should have stopped.....

You marvel at your identity

Of failing to bar your dreams.....

You count your rubble as blessings,

Your tears, a courage in your eye's gleam.....

For its this flotsam in the ocean,

You kept wishing got wasted away,

That held your sails high......

That kept your failures at bay......

So chance upon your life,

And let it lead your boat.....

Coz you never know,

What makes you survive

And keeps your hope afloat.....

Sleepless....

2009-09-08T10:42:00.000-07:00

The drunken stupor

Of bitter sweet memories,

Douses my quest

Of the land of dreams....

I lie, half-awake

As if stopped mid-sentence,

While wiping the smudges

Off the dew soaked screen.....

Self proclaimed desires

Seem to crouch in the shadows,

Of a sub conscious soul....

While the eyes frisk the darkness

For a silhouette of sense.....

Yet the rays of the unseen

Fail to descend......

The heart seeks

A new wanderer,

To find his way

Into the barrens of emotion......

Yet discordant chords

Seemingly play futile notes.....

As numbness gathers comfort,

In the arches of the mind....

While I lie sleepless,

Waiting for my stars

To play a new trick on me this time.....

Writer's Block....

2009-09-08T10:30:00.000-07:00

The soul, so numb

With frigid joy,

Has choked on the syrup

Of linkless thoughts.....

It comes to me

In bits and pieces,

How I can be manoevered

By the strings of fate......

The flow of life unhindered,

But the river of emotions at a stand still......

Yet I am standing by the hope

Of survival, through this ordeal.....

This conquest of lyrical magic,

That mends holes

Of my torn reality.....

I wish love triggers

That storming sentiment,

That can summon my desires

Out of the box......

For I am stuck,

In the closed walls

Of the evident present.....

The sudden loss of my verse

Tormenting my imagination......

As my words seek

From their golden cage,

Their flight of freedom.....

That they cherish,

That they deserve.....

Your Eyes....

2009-07-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

Your eyes, they sing to me,
The notes you leave unsung.....
The trail of your gaze,
Moves me within
Like soothing silken emotions.....
Sometimes, your mischief
Dances in that twinkle,
Bringing to my lifeless being
The tender drizzle of excitement.....
And as you hold my hand
With that childlike innocence,
My will is played with,
My softness trapped.....
When words fall short.....
And you search them in mine....
My soul reaches out,
To your longing eyes......
Its those tears I can't take,
That tear me apart......
Slipping down your countenance,
But settling in my heart......
There are countless games you play,
With their mystic smile.........
Rendering my love helpless,
Making my motives futile.....
But its in their unsettling depths,
Where your silent alchemy lies.....
And it will only be your eyes,
Where I'll let go of my life.......

By The Candlelight....

2009-06-02T10:23:00.000-07:00

The lights are out

With your departure...

Around me,Inside me......

I feel around

In this inky mess,

For a form familiar

And there, my faithful fall-back...

Its amazing you know,

How beautiful it makes

Your hours of memories....

And souvenirs of affection...

With its softness,

Warm and bright......

And by the candlelight,

I admire those silken folds

In my sheets,

Scented by the aroma

Of your sumptuous slumber........

Where you slept

Moments ago, I lie......

Lost in the tenderness

Of your dream filled eyes......

And oh! There's your chain,

Lingering just out of sight......

Like the mole on your back,

Keeping your secrets.....

Hiding in mischief,

Just where I'll tend to seek it......

And by the candlelight,

I recall your touch,

And your skeptic grasp

On my sturdy shoulder......

For a reassurance unknown.....

The way your breathy voice

Whispered content in my ears,

As I led you to the utopia

Of your locked up fantasies......

There is my story teller.....

The reflection of me,

But not as I used to be....

The longing that died,

In those stone cold eyes,

Is now revived

By your mere sight......

Emotions are bedazzled....

Happiness long gone.....

But a hope is still alive,

As I describe the new "I".....

And by the candlelight,

I can't help but chuckle

At this helpless soul,

Drunken with love,

Gripped by desire,

Lost in the fancies

Of you in his tomorrow......

Where the alchemy of your smile,

Will kill him once again......

As you will have

A desperate life

Dedicated at your feet.....

That last glance you gave,

That took me with you,

Is etched on the surface

Of my half conscious mind.....

As I refuse to let go

Of the time rushing by.....

Sunk in the passion,

Of reversing the tide.......

And by the candlelight,

I wait and I dream.....

Of the bits of your charm

You sprinkled over me.......

Of those unaccounted moments,

I spent in your eyes.....

Where my essence of living resides.....

Where the completion of life lies....

Obsession...

2009-05-26T09:48:00.000-07:00

You laugh

With the hint of blossoms,

Brushing your face.....

While I stare,

My red heart,

Brazen with rawish lust......

A grace of your fingers

Stimulates my urge,

To encase your fragility,

Within the walls of my body.......

Forever, yes, and never,

Never ever let go......

When you but hold my hand.....

Restrict your thoughts,

To the horizon of my world.....

Make me your dawn........

Glow with me at dusk......

Let the breeze not touch you,

Before it gushes

Into my innermost senses.....

Let the sands not beguile you,

To set foot before my behest.....

Let the giggling waters,

Wash down my thirst

Before they creep,

Beneath your virgin skin......

The drops of sunlight,

Will enrich my being,

Before they slide down

Your naked shoulders....

Your life, my love,

Is like that of the butterfly.....

Trapped in the cocoons of time....

And I,the connoisseur

Of your silken emotions,

Desire of commemorating

Your palatial existence......

Your maddening scent

Intoxicates my breath......

All of which,I dedicate to thee.......

So poisoned are my sentiments

With your lascivious beauty,

That my eyes refuse to see

Beyond the limits

Your presence draws......

And yet, I sit in silence......

Tormented by your audacious freedom.....

While my fantasies of you,

Are serenely spent,

Dripping with my obsession.....

Wishes In Whispers......

2009-05-01T11:03:00.000-07:00

When the Sun lets out
Its last warm breaths,
And brings to an end,
Its daytime reign......
I feel around me,
The wreath of your arms......
As we smile at the day......
Walking down the last lane........

As the night dances in,
The stage with its far off shimmers.....
The moon sprinkles
Her silent chuckles.......
As I float around,
With my arms spread wide......
Listening to the breeze
That brings me your secrets......

When they immerse,
In their dreamless slumber........
I wait for the playful shadows.......
Of the moonbeams, giggling at me.......
As I take resort,
In the quiet passions,
Of molding your silhouette
From bits of darkness........

And for one last time,
I graze the sheets beside me......
With my hopeful hands,
Waiting for your touch........
Praying for divinity to take over.......
For I know not why,
But my soul believes,
That I'll have you there someday.....

And when the herald of the morning,
Washes away my wishful sleep,
Your luring smile dawns on me.......
Ushering me into another infinity......
Where it is only love I see,
And await.....
Like a devout, for God......
For I know not why,
My little heart speaks,
Of emotions I leave unsaid.....
Of wishes spoken in whispers............

Burnt Memories.....

2009-03-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

I watch from a distance,

As the pictures decay......

The colours melt......

And mix with the flames.........

With them I lose,

My shrivelled happiness........

With them I erase,

The shimmering dreams........

The smoke, it brings to me,

Mon monde en blanc et noir........

The acrid smell,

Tingles my senses,

The hazy mirror levitating in air,

Yet playing the lewd leviathan......

Rubbing into my eyes sore........

Red streaks on white,

Redolent of my lost serenity.......

I dither about my power to let go........

Pieces of my mind,

Eaten by the inferno........

Words spoken and cherished,

Swallowed by the yellow tongues........

But the destined is done.........

The stars are amused and content,

As I wash my hands one last time,

With the remnants of my once loved soul,

With the ashes of my burnt memories.......

Pendant Ma Chère Vie......

2009-02-20T08:54:00.000-08:00

As gentle as a summer cloud,

You float about me.....

With pleasure in your arms,

You lace me with happiness.....

Making my steps light,

Brightness on my face,

Like the gleeful sunrays......

As I laugh with you,

Spreading radiance around.......

Heavy you make,

My heart, sometimes.......

When the light gets too harsh.....

Scorching me,burning emotions......

With teary eyes,

I take your trial, but

You remain the silent culprit.......

Leaving me abandoned,

Like a child without a mother......

And my direction is lost.......

As I reach out and search

For you, in the deafening darkness......

Delicate you make me,

A soul of wax.......

Cast in numerous moulds......

A few moments gone,

And I, a heap of shattered glass......

Sometimes instead,

I'm the pink, yellow, orange

Of the kaleidoscope.....

You play games, a little sordid

Some, I win......

Some, negotiated.....

Some, left unplayed.......

I choose my cards,

Take chances, not knowing

What is hidden,

Behind your sly smiles.....

Those days, when you show,

More dreams than I can see,

I feel lost, quiet......

Pondering over the lessons......

You teach me, hard or happy.........

I think about you then......

And you mock me,

As I foolishly assume,

That I have the reins,

Of your wheels.....

It never was so,

It shall never be......

O life, O dear friend,

You are and always will be,

My most knowing teacher......

My most cherished love......

Your hand in mine,

Whether in good times or bad,

Makes me complete, human......

No matter how many days of laughter,

Or how many days I cry.....

What's most important,

Is having the whole of you, my life!

An Ode To My Love......

2009-02-06T09:42:00.000-08:00

Let the sun of your soul,

Shine on me bright.....

Let the touch of your fingers,

Blind me of all sight.....

Your eyes, they speak to me....

In volumes unsaid.....

The promises you keep,

Spin my life's thread......

The depth I seek,

In the ocean of your thoughts......

Sweep me off the conscious.......

Satisfy what I sought......

The flowers full of smiles,

That you lay on my lap......

Remind me of the blooms,

We ran through, that first spring.....

Like the butterflies you flew.....

Around me, within me.....

Splashing a myriad of colours around......

Painting me red,

Like the rose of your passion.....

I seek you in the morning dew,

For you are my freshness........

I find you in the newborn leaves,

For you are the tenderness,

Of my breath.......

The calm of your voice,

Like a wash of petals on my face......

You hide behind your shy dreams......

My softest desires you chase......

Let me drink to my heart's content,

From the fountain of your love........

Let me sing the sweetest notes,

From the unheard melodies you play..........

Let me into your cove of emotion........

Unravel the mysteries you hide.......

Let me walk you

Through the overwhelmed forest.........

In this silent, moonless night.......

Let our souls be bound,

By the fragile strings of faith........

Let the breeze bring us close.......

For in your arms I'll lay.......

Let us build our world....

With love we will make it divine.....

'Cause I will belong to you forever......

And you will always be mine........

For you Superman..... :)

Titli....

2009-01-21T09:12:00.000-08:00

There sits the little child,

Imaginative, wide eyed......

Proudly telling her friend,

"You wait and watch Rani,

Its just the best in class now....

There will be a day

When I'll fly high,

And dance in the skies......

My voice will do wonders,

And stupefy those people.....

My feet will sprinkle magic,

And they will make me the best!

Such dreams weaves she,

A doe-eyed girl of nine,

So aptly named Titli......

With wings of fantasies

Taking her so high,

That the blazing reality,

Does not graze her little mind....

And smack! Lands a slap

On her rosy cheek

"Don't you have any shame girl?

Talking of obscenities like that?

You need to marry,

And build your life

And not dream of dances divine!

Tears of horror fill Titli's eyes,

As she hears the sentence for life.....

"No Ma! Its not bad!

It is my deepest desire,

My passion! My life!

But the prejudices of convention,

Closed the doors of the mother's heart.....

As she walks away disgusted,

Leaving the child to cry.......

Days come and go,

As nature showers beauty,

Of body, mind and soul

On Titli, the bright faced angel of eleven,

With the power of dancing,

That stuns people around...

And the gift of a voice,

That makes them oblivious,

To any other sound....

As she binds tales of melancholy,

In her soft notes of purity,

Father comes in thundering

"You unfortunate wretch!

How dare you whine so loud??

People are talking and wondering,

Of what are you so proud?

Get ready in a day!

Thanks to the Devi,

Your groom is on his way."

Titli sat aghast.....

Was this song her last?

Not a word came out in shock,

As her mother dressed her in red........

Too terrified was little Titli,

To find out where her fate led....

The next morning he was there,

A haggard of thirty-forty...

A golden tooth shining among the brown,

And eyes red with toddy.....

"Where is my queen?" he demanded

As he threw a wad of money,

There came Titli, shivering, astounded

"No rituals will be done now,

I'm in a hurry," said he

And grabbed Titli, by her wrist

Taking her away from her family.....

A cry of helplessness echoed that day,

And so Titli was never heard of again......

Today she sits in that corner,

At the end of forbidden streets...

Painted with artificiality,

That covers her soulless face.....

No purpose has she left,

She cackles when called a "disgrace".....

Did destiny need to be so harsh?

She pondered day and night........

What sin had she committed?

That brought her to this plight?

And then there was a day,

In the dungeons of her life....

When she became a mother,

And gave birth to a girl child......

That day swore Titli,

That her doll would not be her.....

This new Titli was born to fulfil,

The broken dreams of her mother....

And there she allows her child to fly,

Never look back, just soar high.....

Ringing the bells of happiness in her ears........

Rekindling the hope of living in her eyes......

A Writer's Dream....

2008-12-13T06:38:00.000-08:00

I often find myself,

In the middle of crowded crossroads.....

Misted by opinions,

And advices blown into my eyes....

So that I see,

What the world wants me to see.....

It is then that I decide,

To rub and open my eyes....

Its then that I choose,

To take my own direction....

But towers of obligations,

Try to seize my rights....

My right to be me...

Its then that I stand,

Up and against that,

Which binds me to compromise,

On my needs, my desires.....

When they say move aside,

I take my stand, not to defy,

But to make my point.....

It is as wrong to violate,

As it is to tolerate violation.....

When they ask me to keep low,

For the blindly respected beings.....

I raise my voice,

Not as an altercation,

But to criticize the loopholes of equality....

When they say, "Present your defence"

I take it as an offence,

That I must need statements,

To prove my identity.....

I'm sized by angry eyes.....

And hushed by sneering voices......

Pushed behind by hostile shoulders.....

So that the truth may be left to rot,

In the crevices of thick books......

But I will rise everytime I fall.......

I will speak for my voiceless comrades......

I will stand for that which is just.....

I will write, to move, to change.....

And one day the echoes,

Of my voice, my words

Will rejuvenate kindred souls

To fulfil, a writer's dream.......

Forever And For Always....

2008-12-06T20:01:00.000-08:00

When I think of you,

It seems to me,

Like the world takes a pause....

To let me recall,

Your innocent laughter......

The moist breeze of the first monsoon,

Birngs me your breath......

And I take it in.......

I make it my own......

When I chuckle aloud,

With the toss of my head,

The unconscious moves

Stroke my hair gently.......

I sense the eyes,like those of a doe,

Watching me from somewhere.........

And I blush like the first rose of spring.......

As I feel your warm gaze,

Caressing the nape of my neck.......

When the glistening drops of gloom,

Find their way into my eyes,

I look at my refelection.....

And I see your calmed countenance......

Healing my soul with a smile......

Whispering words of wonder,

That embrace my fragile heart......

Never letting it slip........

Never letting it break.........

When success will bow at my feet,

I'll look into the crowd of cheers,

And these eyes will seek yours.....

Sparkling like none other....

With genuine happiness and care.........

And it will be on such days,

When I'll get the golden chance to say,

This is my man, my love, my life......

Who has made me what I am today.......

When I think of you my love,

No words can express,

What I wish to articulate.......

My heart reaches out to yours,

In special moments like these........

In silent, miraculous ways........

And I know you are there.......

Full of life, full of love........

Holding me in your strong arms,

Forever and for always.....

For you, Superman....

Fake......

2008-12-06T19:59:00.000-08:00

Your eyes, they will see in me,

A broken dream...

As I hold in my hands,

The remains of my strings of belief......

The beads of hope,

Scattering, slipping out of sight.......

Like the receding rays of sunlight.......

Leaving me in darkness........

My tears will not speak,

Of the chances I failed to get......

But of the precious times,

When I failed my chances.....

The frozen sting,

Still makes me numb......

I now see where I stand......

How far I always stood...........

From the reaches of your heart.......

The muted memories of my helplessness,

Give me the picture you framed.....

Mauled by your grey eyes....

And I lost my meaning......

I dared to speak,

But the hearing is done......

The judgment is passed......

I plead with thee,

To know what went wrong.....

Where I fell out of the way.......

But I'm to be left unheard,

And as my will is choked,

With the noose of silence,

I'm tainted as a fake.....

And I fall in love again.....

2008-12-06T19:53:00.001-08:00

The soft tickle of your warm breath....

The aroma of sentiments,

Filling the air....

Content diffused in giggles.....

The ruffle of your hair,

Against the rose of my cheek.....

And I fall in love again.....

Your fingers entangled with mine..

The syrup of your desires,

Quenching my thirst.....

The beads of happiness,

Welling in the depths....

Of the soft brown of your eyes.....

And I fall in love again.....

Our thoughts dissolved,

In the stillness of time...

As moonlight dances,

Sprinkling drops of grace,

On your elegant countenance.....

As you draw your hand across mine...

With a smile full of selfless care......

And I fall in love again.....

With the lingering freshness,

Of your overwhelming kiss....

With the gentleness,

Of your healing caress.......

With the sanctum I find,

In your assuring presence..

With the love I cherish,

In the innocence of your soul....

I fall in love again,

As I rediscover my God in you.......

Dedicated to my Superman.....

Stoic....

2008-11-02T02:16:00.000-08:00

Threads of thoughts,

Knotted in unwanted bonds....

Eyes of stone gazing aimlessly

Lost lustre, dead and cold....

The choking butterfly,

Strangled in the spider's web.......

Torn wings, voiceless pain.....

Oh mutated soul,

Release the rein!

Overwhelmed skies, wary and grey,

Relentlessly shed tears.....

But smoking fires don't melt iron......

Yet the heart fears that touch......

The fragile bird of song,

Tethered to the chains of freedom.......

Ashes of darkness,

Rubbed in as a remainder,

Of that haunted daylight.....

Yet the chilling frost,

Was once some tender drops of dew.....

There were colors of smiles,

In the wounded rose....

Now lying mutilated.....

The scatter of petals,

Still whisper the unspoken.....

That hides behind the stolidity

Of this mystic statue.....

Wrinkled by the winds of time.....

Moulded in the cast,

Of a silent stoic.....

Beside Me,Inside Me.....

2008-10-19T21:00:00.000-07:00

The gentle glow of your pristine soul,

Delighting my senses ,

Like the scent of fresh lilies.....

A collage of memories,

Like the leaves of autumn

Falling around me,

Engulfing me,in their playful embrace........

I take refuge,

In the coziness of your love cushioned heart...

I bask in the warmth of your care......

Your tender voice soothing my mind........

Like a long forgotten lullaby.........

The strength of your presence,

Beside me,inside me......

Shielding me from those belittling eyes.......

Your hand on my shoulder,

And I can face the world blind.....

'Cause you're just a thought away......

A look at your confidence,

And I can proudly say,I live,I survive

You light the flame of life in me......

The trust in your eyes,

And I know I am someone....

Your words caressing my spirits,

Like a soft kiss on my forehead.........

Your understanding silence

Opening the rusted gates,

And showing me a world,

Where I can be what I dream.......

I turn around and smile,

At that familiar silhouette beaming at me.......

I know you are there,

I know you will always be.......

Dedicated to my dada...

on his birthday...20th of october,2008

I love you...

Identity...

2008-09-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

A silent satire,

Garnished with some sad humor

Strikes my mind.....

As I walk into living glamour,

Wondering what strings

Reign these painted puppets,

Dancing to the rhythm of conventions....

Flaunting their desperation to glitter.....

And doing so,with pride!

What but a puff of smoke,

Guarding their unstable status.....

What but the last glass of wine,

Making them knights in shining armour!

A greedy gleam marks each eye......

Many a sadist thought

Concealed in those false-sweet smiles......

I ponder over stifled sighs......

Exhausted with the unseen bonds....

Caging the freedom,

Of expressing yourself

To a horde of taunting jeers.......

I can't help but smile,

At the struggle they have to face

To meet the true eye.......

The preferred trend is to turn blind......

When trouble nags thy neighbour....

Wipe your hands clean

When you decently commit a crime......

Embellish a wrong deed of that stranger

But when it comes to oneself,

Its not worth giving it your time.....

Dilution is the key

To triumph over emotions.....

Practicality is the mask,

For the insensitive minds......

And then they come and ask me,

"What is your identity?

What have you done

To seek and prove your capabilities?"

I laugh on their stunned faces,

Till tears fill my eyes...

And tell them," You see my friends,

This is where my identity lies...."

Revenge.....

2008-09-25T01:28:00.001-07:00

Touch me like the barbed rose,

Slide your fingers

Let them sink in my veins.....

Draw me close....

Pull me tight...

Choke me with the noose

Of the poisoned obsession,

Gleaming in your eyes.....

Smell my skin and take me in.....

With the hunger of the white vice.....

Devour my emotions

And lick the last tear......

Does it satiate your animal?

Your madness cannot stain my spirit...

Tear me apart

And the blood will be frozen.....

The flesh decayed....

My body has long lost

The vigour of life....

Its the haunted cadaver you relish.....

The strings are broken

Your music can't deafen my mind....

The last breath is taken

No more can you rejoice my pain.....

The soul has been unleashed

You helpless scavenger....

It flies,chastised into the skies.....

Now you look on with blinding rage

While I rise high

And chuckle at your cries.......

Unheeded Cries......

2008-09-07T10:26:00.001-07:00

Like a sapling treasured in a seed,

I wait eagerly to sprout....

And spread my wings.....

My little hands rise in need

A desire for love and care....

Bubbling in my fresh blood.......

Every nascent heartbeat

Whispers a want for existence...

A dream to see,

And breathe free...

Stumbling and falling and learning,

Little by little.

Bits of this wonderful thing

Your world calls life......

But this hurts,

This pains mommy

Do you hear?

The music is slowing......

I am trying to hold on......

I wish I could feel you sooner.....

But it refuses to let me go......

Why is my world fading?

You want to know how I look,

Is it your face or daddy's eyes?

You want to adore my giggles

You want to comprehend my babble

Don't you mommy?

I want to love you too

And hide my face in your chest......

Cause this scares me

You will heed to my cries,won't you?

You promised,to stand by every breath

And nurture my soul

But I am falling....

I still don't see you lift me up.......

Mommy,it's getting darker!

Pull me back,before I drown

Mommy,help me,won't you?

Oh no! Mommy,it's you?

Seeking An Answer......

2008-09-07T10:11:00.000-07:00

As nostalgia hits,

The instinctive knot in the throat develops

And the weight of emotions

Gently reflected in the clouded skies,

The flow of tears as smooth as the rain

The best and the worst of the past

Come back in the slow walk through the fields.....

A hesitation seems to hurdle the sight

As he tries to turn back....

The memories linger even when all is gone.....

The want of leaving,yet the need of staying behind......

A desire to shatter as easily as the heavens....

An attempt to pull himself back into place from that,

Which can never come back

Trying to leave the comfort in the trance....

The voice doesn't find space

Seeking for something,someone to answer

The heart burning questions......

Struggling with himself,

Wanting to leave a part of him behind,

But in vain.......

A want to step into the past

And satisfy the restlessness......

Of whatever remains...

But nothingness shuns him

As the lines are drawn....

The ability to move and move on

Seems to dissolve in the rains.....

As he stands motionless

Waiting to be answered......

Terror....

2008-08-12T21:37:00.001-07:00

Shattered houses, broken glass....
Voicing those dreaded tales....
Ruins of roads,
Paths through a graveyard........
The burnt flesh wrenching emotions
As decayed lives litter the place....

Those silent eyes,wide with fright.......
The tormenting silence after the storm.....
Emasculated courage, shaken spirits...
Forbidden by fear,
Forsaken by saviors.....
As the scrimmage for survival,
Dissolves in the dense grey smoke.....

They lie in shock
Bathed in the streams of blood.....
As havoc laughs
At the dismembered minds.....
At the violence stained faces....
At the pain soaked cries.....

The stench of death
Nauseating the senses...
The bone chilling memory
Of witnessing the mass slaughter....
Taking away, every other dream.....
Leaving behind no love,
Happiness, or ray of hope....

Just the painful sighs....
Just the weeping eyes......
As screams for help darken the skies....
As haunting prayers beg for mercy.......
As terror quietens every voice
Enclosing the spaces to breathe...

The cornered souls
Shrouding in fear......
An easy prey to the hungry hounds....
Frantically seek for shadows to hide.....
Won over by the diabolic knight.....

The Drenched Soul......

2008-08-09T09:51:00.001-07:00

The warmth of the first drop
Like a caressing finger drawn
Across the glowing countenance......
As the wind hushes every other sound,
And the clouds blanket the sun....
Those expectant eyes,
With an ocean of darkness in them....
A pearl of hope shines out.....
The taste of nature tingles the senses....
As the softness of the drizzle,
Refreshes the lost spirit.......
The thunderous voice echoes her sigh.......
A bolt of lightning, and a tear.....
Both in a gentle flash....
And then the tinge of a smile........
Brightening the hues of the painting......
A splash of water from the gurgling brook,
The melancholy filled happiness....
An unheard whisper, a silent wish.....
The rain ushering rejuvenated desires within....
The scent of the earth melts the knot of pain....
A love for the unknown savior's touch.....
The floating leaves take away with them
A message to the unseen paradise......
The water enthralls the dormant passions....
The awe inspiring rain drenches her soul......
As the unspoken delight tickles her eyes,
She opens her arms and embraces the skies....

To You,My Love....

2008-07-20T22:49:00.001-07:00

A shy ray of light
Dancing across the idyllic countenance.....
A silent giggle of the breeze
Ruffling the thick black mane.....
As I gently look on
And rejoice this beauty I own.....

I wonder where the magic lies
Is it in those dreamy eyes?
Or in the softness of that touch?
In the mischief of that playful chuckle,
That delights my senses so much?
I stare and ponder in serenity....
And relish the childish simplicity......

The petals of rose that make those lips....
Like living emotions pouted.....
So admirable in picture,so desirable to kiss.....
That smile enthralling my soul undoubted.....
I let the world revolve around my wants
With tears of content,I look on.....

Its beyond words,
The alchemy of your love.....
That purges my heart,
Like a melody unheard.....
The warm comfort of your arms
The gorgeous rouge of that blush......
Those entangled fingers in my hair
An embrace overwhelmed with your innocent care.......

If I were offered an everlasting wish
All I would ask ,my love, is this......
O life, let these moments remain and live....
Not just as an old, fading memory,
But as a true, eternal bliss.......

Sing Me A Song....

2008-06-24T12:28:00.000-07:00

As the drizzle tickles my senses
And the thrill runs down my spine.....
I look above at the overwhelmed skies
And relish your innocent smile.....

I wish to drown in your melodious delight
Embrace your tunes with my arms spread wide.....
And dance to the rhythm of the beats of our hearts.....
In the thunderous music of this night......

Sing for me, a song
That will make me lose myself
In the mystique of your eyes.....
Shower me with your boundless love
Unravel in me,the threads of silence
Let loose that passion in disguise.....

Let our unspoken emotions rhyme
Let our spirits run astray......
Making each breath shallow and soft.....
Embodying desires wild....
As clouds hover above, in mischief
Chuckling at this marvelous sight.....

Your voice rejuvenates my longing
And seals every unhealed wound......
The vibrations play with the strings of my heart
And your descant enchants my mind.....

As the rain drenches our kindred souls
I celebrate you, my life.....
So sing for me, a song my love....
Won't you sing for me tonight?

Hidden...

2008-06-07T12:06:00.000-07:00

When the lights go dim
And the music fades....
I lie on my cushion of thoughts
Blanketed by boundless fears.....
In a world so colourless,
That the eyes seek solace
In the void of darkness......

The mind plays with illusions
Painting the abstract
With colours unseen...
Leading desires to the devil's snare....
I wipe off the blood invisible
Staining my hands forever......
Sole witnesses of the murder
Of fragile, pure innocence....

Yet frantic attempts go vain
The brutal scars remain....
Shouting out my unspoken pain
In a room full of deaf listeners.......
I stand unguarded......
With naked and betrayed feelings
Refusing to clothe my senses.......
With the threads of hope
Bitten and broken
By moths of reality.....

The masks of sanity
Grinning, as the last straw
Tends to slip out of sight.....
Spotlight of countless accuses
Burning my insides......
As I grope in nothingness
Like a fall from a cliff
Of refreshed horror......
So long the fall....
Like there is no ending....

And then fly the sparks.....
The lights are out
Another cut on the flesh of emotions.....
Reviving the numbness
I lose myself
And relish the sizzle of red....
That replaces the tears
The tears that dried...
I smile senselessly
At the merciless wounds I hide....

My Shining Star.....

2008-05-17T22:48:00.001-07:00

When the eyes lose the glimmer
Of the rising sun.....
When nothingness is all you hold on to,
When numbness slithers within
Like a venomous snake.....
I'll stand here to embrace you....

When life takes its rides
On rocky cascades.....
When gold wears off the silver plate....
When the world accuses you of failure
In the unreal,exhausting rat race......
I'll hold your hand
And help you stand......

When the words don't seem enough
And emotions overwhelm your mind......
When there is no warmth you can find.....
When the sand drizzles out of your palms
And drowns the little hopes you cherish.....
I'll caress your head in my lap,
And never let your beliefs perish.......

When they will stab your trust,
And strangle your love.....
When they'll turn blind,
To your innocent care.....
When they'll shower their hateful glare...
I'll hide you safely in my heart
I'll heal you with my love...
And won't let you fall apart......

Because for me,
You are the first flower of spring
Whose fragrance beautifies my world.....
You are the soft breeze of fall
Which breathes life into me.....
You are the moonlit night
Which promises me another soulful day.....

You are that hazy dream
Which shapes my destiny.....
You are that healing touch
Which eases the bleeding heart.....
You are the comforting arm
When everyone seems so far.......
You are my love,my brother
You are my shining star.......

Dedicated to my Dada....
One of the people I love the most...
Love you...

Concealed....

2008-05-14T10:45:00.001-07:00

In the ruins of memories
Lie some thoughts worth forgetting....
Scattered like shards of glass
Shattered into a million pieces
Yet sinking enough to wound....
Raw, unhealed and bleeding
Leaving behind scars
That never fade....

Yet when the eyes are misted
The face draws curtains of smiles....
Clouds of silence
Cushioning the very existence.......
The threatening voices draw lines.....
Lines, that should never be crossed...

The violent cries are lost
In the depths of baseless fears....
Like the hidden message of a painting
Waiting to be deciphered.......
Yet the seen, is the believed
And the hand reaches out in vain....

Scalded emotions are washed with time
But the ashes remain.....
Like a hurting reminder
Of untold grief......
Drowned in numbness
Of age old pain,well concealed....

Obsessed....

2008-05-14T10:18:00.000-07:00

A violent desire
Possessing the soul
Like a restless spirit....
The claws of paranoia
Scratching at decaying ideas.....
The hideous whisper of the wind
A silent, wild instigation....
The unfathomable depths
Of raw and maddening intensity....
A sourceless power
Wanting to take over......
The dissatisfaction of the starved snake
Tempted to hit on
And devour its prey
Yet resisted by unseen limits......
The pungent smell of burning flesh
Intoxicating the senses....
Losing hold on the conscious, the real.......
An arousal to the beast within
Its a hoarse call tonight........
To the nascent evil
Erupting inside the provoked womb of rage....
Its time to hold back
And not let go
Of every fleeting, hungry want.....
Emotions display their darker side
A sadistic pleasure in seething pain.....
All warmth slips out of sight
As the mind sways in lust
To the soft beats
Of a heart obsessed.....

Flightless....

2008-04-25T10:02:00.000-07:00

A beautiful little infant
With eyes so promising.....
Struggling its way out of the shell
Into a world, so unknown.....
Hoping to see the best,
Fly the highest,
Conquer the strongest.....

Nurtured by a loving mother,
Idolizing its ancestors
Yet not ready to ensconce,
With just another soaring fly.....
Featherless, yet a naked courage
Shining on the countenance
With a spirit, before which,
The world could bow down....

Hopping with its tiny wings
On the cozy straws underneath
A desire to jump up and fly someday....
Race with its kith and kin
Flutter over the clouds,
Across the celestials,
And on the rushing ocean tides......

Yet life had to turn its face
And bring to light,
The scars and wounds.....
Some indelible imprints
Impressed on the young mind.....
Blocking the innocent vision
Of pure, uncaring adventure......

As predators scavenge on fellow fliers
Terror sinks deep into the tender heart....
An urge to spread its wings
Repressed by the fear of loss of breath
Yet firmly it moved on
Knowing not the fatal consequences
And made its first flight....

Over the unfriendly greenery
Tearing through its intricate wings.....
Thorns of poisonous cruelty
Laughing a mirthless laugh over its agony.....
A sight so grievous....
A world so heartless......

Yet farther it moved,
Over rocky terrains, through roaring thunders
Seeing how merciless destiny chose to be.....
A shot, and a cry of pain,
Tumbling down it came
The little bird was slain....

Breathing,yet so painfully lifeless....
Like a fish in an empty pond
It still twitches and turns....
Though Irony shows its little mercies
And lets the bird live on
It writhes forever in the shatters of distress
Rendered, so brutally, flightless....

Claustrophobia...

2008-04-14T12:03:00.000-07:00

The stifling fear rises
Like a tide
In the ocean of those eyes.....
When darkness encroaches
With arms wide open.....
Sucking in the air
In a single, hoarse breath......

She staggers back, directionless
Like a cornered prey....
A wild flail of arms
A lame refusal to accept defeat......
The walls seem to close in
And so helpless feels her soul
Like a victim surrounded
By countless hungry predators.......
Voiceless screams tear through the air
As silence seems like a curse.....

She contends with the nauseating waves
Thrashing against her terrorized heart.....
Breaking her up
Shredding her courage to pieces...
She gropes fanatically, in the dark
For a reliable hold on reality.......
But none she finds
To respond to her cries for mercy.......

The noose tightens
An asphyxiated mind
Losing her conscious.....
The powerless eyes stare
Without a blink
Too scared to lose their vision.......
But the door remains closed......

The body crumbles into a drunken stupor
And she falls into nothingness....
Partly dead, partly numb
Encased in a shell of senselessness......
Lost in the brutal illusions of her mind
She lies there, wide-eyed
Fatally afraid of fear.......

Wildness....

2008-03-26T19:34:00.000-07:00

A stretch of magnificence
Untouched and pure.....
Where songs of the nightingale
Awaken the day.....
With trees in a deep dreamless slumber
And the delicious lustre of leaves,
Fringed with the glistening beads of dew......
Where beetles immerse in their dewy sleep
Blanketed by the petals of flowers....
An inexplicable bliss
In the wordless melodies,
Of the winged beings.....
An ocean of colours,
Flooding the flutter of the butterflies.....
The delectable perfume of life
Diffusing into the purged air....
The rhythm of the unsung music
Arousing desires of rejuvenation......
An intoxicating thrill taking over the senses.....
Like a jump from the tallest of mountains...
Like the journey of an adventurous river.....
Like a playful race
With the golden beams of the sun....
A world, far away
From the deleterious human clutches.....
Where the essence of nature can thrive.....
Where virginal beauty takes a peaceful breath....
A spread of wildness,
There it lies...
Where the Goddess still survives....

Reflection...

2008-03-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

A silently speaking piece of serenity
Reflecting more than just the countenance.....
Penetrating the very soul
Through the depths of the eyes......
The glass reflects her unmindful staring
At a world blurred with blankness
Speaking her heart out
In a language unspoken......
She looks at everything
And nothing so clear.....
She loses herself in some deeply buried moments
Searching the reaches
Of that empty treasure box......
A thoughtless smile for the golden memories
An unnoticed tear for the shades of grey
Taking over the myriad of colours in her life.....
While her reflection enhances
The mystique of its subject
With some fading bluntness......
Its transparent tranquility
A contrast to her tormenting complexities......
One careless glance
And she sees the beauty in her reflection
The beauty, that lies within.......
The weeping eyes fill with a promising comfort
The warmth of the smile overwhelms
As her very own reflection
Rejuvenates the lifeless spirit
A mere glass teaches her the essence
Of living in the present
A simple reflection.....an elixir of life.....

Unspoken Bonds.....

2008-03-13T08:35:00.000-07:00

I stand here yet again....
Looking at that familiar face
In my reflection
I smile and say
"I love you for what you are"
And she smiles right back at me
Happily saying the same.....
I look into those eyes
A sparkle I see
Which had been lost
Over the seemingly unending time
Lost in understanding
Where I was
Why I was what I saw....

Not too long ago
I saw a silent soul........
A frowning face, those spark less eyes
A broken heart
And decaying confidence
Failing to recognize herself
Amidst a crowd of faceless strangers.....
She stood right here
Staring at someone
Who had lost a countless times
In the game of life.....
The mirrored image failing to please her mind
Unanswered questions
Haunting her day and night
Like running aimlessly in the wild....
Meaningless tears and thoughtless hours
Wasted,spent in vain
Yet identifying herself
Was for her,an unbearable pain
Knowing not where she headed
She felt,"Its time I quit the game
Coz no matter what
I am destined to lose
I never did win this play....."

Yet as she turned away
Without thinking about a last try
A quiet call stunned her
"Are you going to die?"
She turned back, and he stood there....
A someone she barely knew
A little too scared
A little too shocked
She knew not what to do
It came again and sunk into her
"Are you going to die?"
She nodded a yes, firmly this time
But did not look into his eyes
"You will not do this
You are hurting me,don't you know?" he said
She stood there lost more than ever
For now,she realized how many she left behind....
"You can't do this to your friend", he said
And quietly her path, he led
To a new world, where the lost girl
She could never find.....

And yet again I stand here today.......
Pondering where I left that girl
How I came all this way....
I have nothing to give to that smiling face
No grateful words to say
He will always be someone,that tranquil soul
For whom I can't thank God enough....
All I have for you my friend,
Is just a little heart filled with love
And as with passing days
I grow of you,more fond
My heart cheers with happiness and fills
With respect for our unspoken bond......

Dedicated to one of my best friends...

The Marriage Of Celestial Souls...

2008-02-21T07:05:00.000-08:00

The inky depths merging with the blue folds
As the skies get painted in those lovely bright shades....
All set to be adorned by the bride.....
The herald of the day settling to tame her golden curls...
A chuckle and a rosy blush....
As the playful winds tease the child in her....
While she braids the beams with the fluffy clouds
As fresh as the first daisies of Spring...
She shines with a sinking sadness
As the time comes to bid adieu to her kin.....
Oh,the excitement bubbles though!
He must be on his way...
Borne like a king
By the soldiers of Night.....
In his fondness for her beauty
He brings the stars along
To see her glowing countenance
Bejewelled with those precious diamonds.......
A deep breath she takes
And nestles in the embrace of her mother........
While the birds sing the wedding melodies.........
The breeze giggles and whispers to her
The gurgling river just reflected his face!
He must be there, my dear Princess!
She smiles silently....
As the celebration of the dusk announces his arrival....
The tides grace his path....
It's time,for a majestic union of the lovers...
It's time, for the marriage of the celestial souls....

The Shadows....

2008-02-14T19:48:00.000-08:00

The anxiousness of a forced silence
The quiet trembling of the calm....
Those familiar footsteps
I recognized everywhere.....
With the boldness of a final retreat....
I wish to raise my hand and stop
I hope to get that last glance
Yet all I get in return
Is the last loving sight of that silhouette........
As I feel myself sinking
Into the depths of the ocean of night.......
No one around to save my drowning body
Coz the lights are out
The last flame flickers in the wind......
The wax melts away with my life......
I jump at the memory of the touch
I taste that salty syrup of sorrow
A desire to give up
The tormenting tolerance.......
An imaginary summon
To my long lost friend.......
And the comforting loneliness
Feeling the scars of my corpse....
I shut my eyes to keep away
The pain of visualizing those moments
Like a rose with its petals ripped off
I am naked to the violent winds....
A helpless attempt to awaken my dead voice
The noiseless screech out of agony.....
The raging storm now stands victorious
Scratched and stung, yet a wounded numbness
Like my soul being revoked
I stand defeated
Wondering senselessly
At my serendipitous survival......
As my world lies demolished
I lie, abducted by the scavengers
In the sanctum of the shadows......

Am Still Wearing My Shoes.....

2008-01-30T08:57:00.000-08:00

The world goes round
The living move towards a larger life
Progress takes another step
But I am still wearing my shoes....

Competition takes a wilder shape
People make wiser moves
Power takes over the powerless
But I am still making up my mind....

Violence silences the forgotten peace
The helpless cry in the blazing inferno
Tyranny reigns with its fatal carelessness
But I am still learning to speak....

The heartless break a few more hearts
The soulless demean a few more lives
The faceless mislead some more of the innocent
Yet I am still determining my path.....

A day will come
When I'll rise above them
When the needy will have the saviour
They insanely fantasize day and night....

I'll strive to enhance the potential
I'll work my way through these difficulties
But it will all be done on one fine day
Which tends to seem far away...

Will they survive through this haul of nightmares?
Will it not be too late?
Will they get another chance?
Or will they have to wait?

A silent wish, that it won't be too late...
A hopeful dream, that they will wait...
Coz am still yearning
To exist, to stand and stand out....

Being Me....

2008-01-24T07:53:00.000-08:00

Each new day dawns with a smile
As I set to walk on the same old roads...
Like the same old me...
I see the smart
Admire the wise
Laugh with the witty
And ignore the foolish...
Yet not a change penetrates my soul...
Why, I see a someone in me...
That someone, who struggles
To see the unseen...
That someone, who enjoys
Dreaming the unknown...
That someone, who knows...
Why insanity is a virtue...
The child like laughter
Is a treat for herself
When she is happy...
A silent tear while swallowing the pain
When her world just seems, to tumble down...
Yet courage it takes
To rebuild it again...
A new cornerstone every time...
An inexplicable trust in that God
She believes to have in herself...
A positive look with the hope
That life will be fine....
Its all she strives for...
Yet sometimes, she weakens
Sometimes, she falls...
But a true spirit it takes
To lift yourself up...
To look at the ruthless world...
With your head held high..
"I care not what you all think of me"
Is all she tries to hold on to
And all I know, is she succeeds...
With that silent, loving smile on her face....
Rarely seen,
Yet with a truth unspeakable...
Yes, I adore this someone I see...
Oh yes! I love being me!

The Call...

2008-01-17T00:56:00.000-08:00

The silence of the dawn
The faint chime of bells in a far off shrine
Triggering some sleeping emotions.....
The cool breeze provokes my inner voice
A calm whisper stuns me
I am asked,"Oh silent soul,
Do you relish being maneuvered like a puppet
In the hands of the so called "Fate"?
Do you name this deathly monotony, Life?
Know you not the excitement
In making your dreams come true?
Or are you satisfied with calling them
A pretty figment of your imagination?
I stare answer less, at the rising sun
The truth underlying these questions astounds me...
The fluttering of pigeons around
I turn back, a noiseless observer....
And yet again I am questioned
"Do you not feel today
Like a flightless bird?
In a hasty search for a destination?
Do you not wish
To slow down and dance
To the serene rhythm of life?"
I voicelessly accept, "I do."
"Then throw off the ties
Care not, if the world
Accuses your free spirit
To be your idiosyncrasy
You live for yourself, not for this world...
Let the warmth of the sunlight
Purify your soul of all fears
Let that winged friend
Guide your desires towards the infinite skies....
Let your will be the wind under your wings
Go on, and bravely aim to embrace the Sun...
And think not, of failure"
"What if, I don't reach that far?"
"So what? You'll still fall among the stars!"

Insomniac...

2007-12-29T10:45:00.001-08:00

The soothing sweetness of a distant lullaby
Ringing in my ears...
The cool breeze ruffling my hair
Like the gentle caress of a mother...
The moon tries to warm my soul
With its passionately soft glow...
Yet the turmoil continues in the mind..
The heart writhes in pain...
I can't even cry...
Will the eyes allow me to?
I lie numb, like a corpse
Allowing myself to brood
Over the darkest side of me...
A twist, a turn
While I force myself to lose consciousness
But the mind rejects the calm...
Turning the pages of books
With the glassy blankness in the eyes...
Gazing out of the window in vain...
I fail to distract my thoughts...
I fail, to run away from them...
They victoriously haunt me...
And the world around looks cold, mirthless
Blanketing me with the fear of the unknown
Such a storm tormenting my existence...
Yet the night mocks at me with serenity...
Its time they smile, while I cry...
Its time, they rest in peace
Satisfied with the agony
Of my restless soul...
Another turn....sit up...and lie down...
I sigh, coz I can't scream
Yet again, I dwell in a phantasm
A night without dreams...
With the mind in a stupor
The choking emotions...
The silently killing, drowsy darkness...
Yet again....with a traumatized soul...
I lie...without sleep...

Setting Free.....

2007-12-15T09:11:00.001-08:00

The remains of the once scented rose....
The silent blush over smiling memories....
All well buried, well hidden.....
I take back that childish assertiveness,
I withdraw that hand
I expected you to hold.....
Lovingly killing every consolidated emotion
Beautified with time....
But now dead and decaying....
Won't let anyone scavenge on my feelings...
Taking back every little moment that we called "ours"
Let them be mine alone, now, and forever....
Disintegrating every thought involving you...
I wish to be immune to love...
The numb feeling, itself giving me the resistance...
I shut my ears to the sounds
The sounds of laughter shared...
I refuse to look back at the tears
We wiped, for one another
They will,of course, remind me of you....
I stop my search for love....
I satisfy my thirst for care, with coldness.....
I refuse to recognize that short lived soul,
Who felt and lived with the most cherished emotion
And used my mortal body to dwell....
Those days, I remove
From the flashbacks of my life...
Which emasculate me,
Obstructing my view beyond.....
I lived, I loved, as much as life wished me to
No more, this pain I will bear....
I desert my wants for a comforting shoulder....
I strangle that human need....
As I attempt my love, to let you go...
As I attempt, to set you free.....

The Journey Of A Soul....

2007-12-15T09:08:00.000-08:00

On this dusty path he stands,
Right here,at the very beginning
Trying to look beyond the visible....
And as he begins to travel,
The deceiving obstacles
Roll into his way
Like unwanted companions of the journey....
"Are you sure you wish to tread this path?" ,says one
"Know you not,what lies ahead?"
And there builds a loud of doubt....
But he does manage
To disperse the thought
"I think not of tomorrow, but of today
And that's what makes
All the difference to me...."
"You wish, my man, have your way"
And the first companion walks away
He moves further,
But fate doesn't leave him alone for long
Yet another seemingly "well" wisher,
Comes forward to walk along
"I'll stroll with you my friend
I'll take you to a world of friendly souls
You can laugh, you will rejoice
You can share your tears
You will pick up a smile
But how do you plan to look beyond
When the time will come
To leave these emotions behind?"
The temptation to stay,
To stop right there
Entices the young soul...
Yet the strength of will
Overtakes the momentary desires
"Learning to relish the present
And facing every facet of life
Is what I wish to be all about"
"Your will,my friend, move ahead....."
A turn of life,
A taste of success,
And yet again
A mate passes his way
"You have done well young man
Its time you sit back and make merry
Your success is sure to last for a lifetime
Be content, won't you?"
But life has taught him better
"To be ensconced wherever I am,
Is to kill the desire of being human
Taking yet another step
Is what makes life worth living for me..."
"Your choice,young soul
Move on and pave your path further"
And the soul takes yet another obstacle in his stride
All of them,together say
"Stop not,O brave heart!
Move,and the world will be moved with your views
Coz you are a part of this world
And the world is a part of you...."

Living In A Memory.....

2007-11-24T21:14:00.000-08:00

Turning the yellow tatters of her diary
Attempting to relive some moments of life......
Moments of laughter,
Moments of smiles,
Moments of tears,
Moments of sighs......
Taking a sip from the wine of love
Fermented with age.....
Gulping down the warmth in her neck
She knows, it won't last for long......
Years have been spent with age old memories
Yet she fingers through them
Relishing her feelings like some new notes of music....
She smiles
As she immerses into that world...
And yet again the pages are soaked
With the silent drizzle....
Touching some unhealed wounds
She quietens her cries of pain...
"Its gone, its over
Lets leave the past alone"
Yet the condolences stabbing with regret
How long has she lived in that never ending night?
How long has she been lost
In the depths of those eyes?
Neither her diary, nor her smile
Nor the renewed shower of tears
Nor those spark-less eyes
Answer these rueful questions
'Coz no one knows.....no one ever will...
Yet she dwells in her deluded world
And resumes the longing
In her timeless wait
"A morning will come
Heralding with my name
And I will see, I will love
That beautiful face again..."
There weeps the dimmed moon
Overwhelmed with grief,
Yet she clings to her decaying hope
The hope of living.....
Living with her life
With her world, with her love
With that someone...somewhere....