The Call...

The silence of the dawn
The faint chime of bells in a far off shrine
Triggering some sleeping emotions.....
The cool breeze provokes my inner voice
A calm whisper stuns me
I am asked,"Oh silent soul,
Do you relish being maneuvered like a puppet
In the hands of the so called "Fate"?
Do you name this deathly monotony, Life?
Know you not the excitement
In making your dreams come true?
Or are you satisfied with calling them
A pretty figment of your imagination?
I stare answer less, at the rising sun
The truth underlying these questions astounds me...
The fluttering of pigeons around
I turn back, a noiseless observer....
And yet again I am questioned
"Do you not feel today
Like a flightless bird?
In a hasty search for a destination?
Do you not wish
To slow down and dance
To the serene rhythm of life?"
I voicelessly accept, "I do."
"Then throw off the ties
Care not, if the world
Accuses your free spirit
To be your idiosyncrasy
You live for yourself, not for this world...
Let the warmth of the sunlight
Purify your soul of all fears
Let that winged friend
Guide your desires towards the infinite skies....
Let your will be the wind under your wings
Go on, and bravely aim to embrace the Sun...
And think not, of failure"
"What if, I don't reach that far?"
"So what? You'll still fall among the stars!"

Insomniac...

The soothing sweetness of a distant lullaby
Ringing in my ears...
The cool breeze ruffling my hair
Like the gentle caress of a mother...
The moon tries to warm my soul
With its passionately soft glow...
Yet the turmoil continues in the mind..
The heart writhes in pain...
I can't even cry...
Will the eyes allow me to?
I lie numb, like a corpse
Allowing myself to brood
Over the darkest side of me...
A twist, a turn
While I force myself to lose consciousness
But the mind rejects the calm...
Turning the pages of books
With the glassy blankness in the eyes...
Gazing out of the window in vain...
I fail to distract my thoughts...
I fail, to run away from them...
They victoriously haunt me...
And the world around looks cold, mirthless
Blanketing me with the fear of the unknown
Such a storm tormenting my existence...
Yet the night mocks at me with serenity...
Its time they smile, while I cry...
Its time, they rest in peace
Satisfied with the agony
Of my restless soul...
Another turn....sit up...and lie down...
I sigh, coz I can't scream
Yet again, I dwell in a phantasm
A night without dreams...
With the mind in a stupor
The choking emotions...
The silently killing, drowsy darkness...
Yet again....with a traumatized soul...
I lie...without sleep...

Setting Free.....

The remains of the once scented rose....
The silent blush over smiling memories....
All well buried, well hidden.....
I take back that childish assertiveness,
I withdraw that hand
I expected you to hold.....
Lovingly killing every consolidated emotion
Beautified with time....
But now dead and decaying....
Won't let anyone scavenge on my feelings...
Taking back every little moment that we called "ours"
Let them be mine alone, now, and forever....
Disintegrating every thought involving you...
I wish to be immune to love...
The numb feeling, itself giving me the resistance...
I shut my ears to the sounds
The sounds of laughter shared...
I refuse to look back at the tears
We wiped, for one another
They will,of course, remind me of you....
I stop my search for love....
I satisfy my thirst for care, with coldness.....
I refuse to recognize that short lived soul,
Who felt and lived with the most cherished emotion
And used my mortal body to dwell....
Those days, I remove
From the flashbacks of my life...
Which emasculate me,
Obstructing my view beyond.....
I lived, I loved, as much as life wished me to
No more, this pain I will bear....
I desert my wants for a comforting shoulder....
I strangle that human need....
As I attempt my love, to let you go...
As I attempt, to set you free.....

The Journey Of A Soul....

On this dusty path he stands,
Right here,at the very beginning
Trying to look beyond the visible....
And as he begins to travel,
The deceiving obstacles
Roll into his way
Like unwanted companions of the journey....
"Are you sure you wish to tread this path?" ,says one
"Know you not,what lies ahead?"
And there builds a loud of doubt....
But he does manage
To disperse the thought
"I think not of tomorrow, but of today
And that's what makes
All the difference to me...."
"You wish, my man, have your way"
And the first companion walks away
He moves further,
But fate doesn't leave him alone for long
Yet another seemingly "well" wisher,
Comes forward to walk along
"I'll stroll with you my friend
I'll take you to a world of friendly souls
You can laugh, you will rejoice
You can share your tears
You will pick up a smile
But how do you plan to look beyond
When the time will come
To leave these emotions behind?"
The temptation to stay,
To stop right there
Entices the young soul...
Yet the strength of will
Overtakes the momentary desires
"Learning to relish the present
And facing every facet of life
Is what I wish to be all about"
"Your will,my friend, move ahead....."
A turn of life,
A taste of success,
And yet again
A mate passes his way
"You have done well young man
Its time you sit back and make merry
Your success is sure to last for a lifetime
Be content, won't you?"
But life has taught him better
"To be ensconced wherever I am,
Is to kill the desire of being human
Taking yet another step
Is what makes life worth living for me..."
"Your choice,young soul
Move on and pave your path further"
And the soul takes yet another obstacle in his stride
All of them,together say
"Stop not,O brave heart!
Move,and the world will be moved with your views
Coz you are a part of this world
And the world is a part of you...."

Living In A Memory.....

Turning the yellow tatters of her diary
Attempting to relive some moments of life......
Moments of laughter,
Moments of smiles,
Moments of tears,
Moments of sighs......
Taking a sip from the wine of love
Fermented with age.....
Gulping down the warmth in her neck
She knows, it won't last for long......
Years have been spent with age old memories
Yet she fingers through them
Relishing her feelings like some new notes of music....
She smiles
As she immerses into that world...
And yet again the pages are soaked
With the silent drizzle....
Touching some unhealed wounds
She quietens her cries of pain...
"Its gone, its over
Lets leave the past alone"
Yet the condolences stabbing with regret
How long has she lived in that never ending night?
How long has she been lost
In the depths of those eyes?
Neither her diary, nor her smile
Nor the renewed shower of tears
Nor those spark-less eyes
Answer these rueful questions
'Coz no one knows.....no one ever will...
Yet she dwells in her deluded world
And resumes the longing
In her timeless wait
"A morning will come
Heralding with my name
And I will see, I will love
That beautiful face again..."
There weeps the dimmed moon
Overwhelmed with grief,
Yet she clings to her decaying hope
The hope of living.....
Living with her life
With her world, with her love
With that someone...somewhere....

A Letter To Mother.....

Dear Mother,
The sweat, the strain,
The struggle, the pain,
With which you have brought us up,
Has influenced my life i n every step I've taken
Your limitless, unselfish love,
Your intensive care,
Your decisions and advices
Have made it possible for me
To live life with pride
To have trust in myself
That I will be successful in whatever I'll try,
Because Mother, you have always been with me
Your support and your guidance
Has built a path for me
A path, which has made it certain
That I will achieve my goal.....
As your morals will always be impressed on my mind
Your anger gave me self discipline
And the power,
To differentiate between the right and the wrong
Your belief in God has simply made it sure for me
That He exists....
Your respect towards others
Has made your position distinct in my eyes
Your helping attitude always reminds me
That humanity still exists in this world.....
Your way of fulfilling my needs and not wishes
Made me believe
That though this world is difficult to live in,
Surviving here, isn't impossible
There is so much more I have to learn...
From your nature, and character
But Mother dear,
You will surely agree with me here
That what I've already learnt
Will never lead my life towards failure...
And though my gratitude is inexpressible towards you,
I would still like to say,
Thank You!!

For The Love Of Nature...

A windy, rugged path in the woods
Littered with golden and brown....
The memories of the beautiful spring
Still scattered around
Like a haunting reminder of happiness.....
The hushed up trees
Merely rustling to voice their grief....
The song of the cuckoo
Silenced by the encroaching darkness....
The sun bids a serene adieu
As it immerses into the depths of the horizon....
The golden beauty of the limitless skies
Shadowed by the tyranny of night
All lives surrendering to the whimsical king
I stand there, merely an onlooker
A quiet spectator to the turmoil of nature.....
I see myself being mocked
I revel in the mystique of nature's expression
And nestle in its lap
My only solace....
I let loose my pain in the wild...
It dies away like the cuckoo's song
Thoughts wither off like those golden leaves
The bitterness dissolves in the darkness
And the silence quietens my aching soul
The rustling trees swallow my distress
As nature tries to pacify some human needs....
One creation bent upon the good of another
Each one,with its own bit of sacrifice
And I stop that falling tear....
I have to smile
For the love of nature....