Beside Me,Inside Me.....

The gentle glow of your pristine soul,

Delighting my senses ,

Like the scent of fresh lilies.....

A collage of memories,

Like the leaves of autumn

Falling around me,

Engulfing me,in their playful embrace........

I take refuge,

In the coziness of your love cushioned heart...

I bask in the warmth of your care......

Your tender voice soothing my mind........

Like a long forgotten lullaby.........

The strength of your presence,

Beside me,inside me......

Shielding me from those belittling eyes.......

Your hand on my shoulder,

And I can face the world blind.....

'Cause you're just a thought away......

A look at your confidence,

And I can proudly say,I live,I survive

You light the flame of life in me......

The trust in your eyes,

And I know I am someone....

Your words caressing my spirits,

Like a soft kiss on my forehead.........

Your understanding silence

Opening the rusted gates,

And showing me a world,

Where I can be what I dream.......

I turn around and smile,

At that familiar silhouette beaming at me.......

I know you are there,

I know you will always be.......

Dedicated to my dada...

on his birthday...20th of october,2008

I love you...

Identity...

A silent satire,

Garnished with some sad humor

Strikes my mind.....

As I walk into living glamour,

Wondering what strings

Reign these painted puppets,

Dancing to the rhythm of conventions....

Flaunting their desperation to glitter.....

And doing so,with pride!

What but a puff of smoke,

Guarding their unstable status.....

What but the last glass of wine,

Making them knights in shining armour!

A greedy gleam marks each eye......

Many a sadist thought

Concealed in those false-sweet smiles......

I ponder over stifled sighs......

Exhausted with the unseen bonds....

Caging the freedom,

Of expressing yourself

To a horde of taunting jeers.......

I can't help but smile,

At the struggle they have to face

To meet the true eye.......

The preferred trend is to turn blind......

When trouble nags thy neighbour....

Wipe your hands clean

When you decently commit a crime......

Embellish a wrong deed of that stranger

But when it comes to oneself,

Its not worth giving it your time.....

Dilution is the key

To triumph over emotions.....

Practicality is the mask,

For the insensitive minds......

And then they come and ask me,

"What is your identity?

What have you done

To seek and prove your capabilities?"

I laugh on their stunned faces,

Till tears fill my eyes...

And tell them," You see my friends,

This is where my identity lies...."

Revenge.....

Touch me like the barbed rose,

Slide your fingers

Let them sink in my veins.....

Draw me close....

Pull me tight...

Choke me with the noose

Of the poisoned obsession,

Gleaming in your eyes.....

Smell my skin and take me in.....

With the hunger of the white vice.....

Devour my emotions

And lick the last tear......

Does it satiate your animal?

Your madness cannot stain my spirit...

Tear me apart

And the blood will be frozen.....

The flesh decayed....

My body has long lost

The vigour of life....

Its the haunted cadaver you relish.....

The strings are broken

Your music can't deafen my mind.... 

The last breath is taken

No more can you rejoice my pain.....

The soul has been unleashed

You helpless scavenger....

It flies,chastised into the skies.....

Now you look on with blinding rage

While I rise high

And chuckle at your cries.......

Unheeded Cries......

Like a sapling treasured in a seed,

I wait eagerly to sprout....

And spread my wings.....

My little hands rise in need

A desire for love and care....

Bubbling in my fresh blood.......

Every nascent heartbeat

Whispers a want for existence...

A dream to see,

And breathe free...

Stumbling and falling and learning,

Little by little.

Bits of this wonderful thing

Your world calls life......

But this hurts,

This pains mommy

Do you hear?

The music is slowing......

I am trying to hold on......

I wish I could feel you sooner.....

But it refuses to let me go......

Why is my world fading?

You want to know how I look,

Is it your face or daddy's eyes?

You want to adore my giggles

You want to comprehend my babble

Don't you mommy?

I want to love you too

And hide my face in your chest......

Cause this scares me

You will heed to my cries,won't you?

You promised,to stand by every breath

And nurture my soul

But I am falling....

I still don't see you lift me up.......

Mommy,it's getting darker!

Pull me back,before I drown

Mommy,help me,won't you?

Oh no! Mommy,it's you?

Seeking An Answer......

As nostalgia hits,

The instinctive knot in the throat develops

And the weight of emotions 

Gently reflected in the clouded skies,

The flow of tears as smooth as the rain

The best and the worst of the past 

Come back in the slow walk through the fields.....

A hesitation seems to hurdle the sight 

As he tries to turn back....

The memories linger even when all is gone.....

The want of leaving,yet the need of staying behind......

A desire to shatter as easily as the heavens....

An attempt to pull himself back into place from that,

Which can never come back

Trying to leave the comfort in the trance....

The voice doesn't find space

Seeking for something,someone to answer

The heart burning questions......

Struggling with himself,

Wanting to leave a part of him behind,

But in vain.......

A want to step into the past 

And satisfy the restlessness......

Of whatever remains...

But nothingness shuns him

As the lines are drawn....

The ability to move and move on 

Seems to dissolve in the rains.....

As he stands motionless

Waiting to be answered......

Terror....

Shattered houses, broken glass....
Voicing those dreaded tales....
Ruins of roads,
Paths through a graveyard........
The burnt flesh wrenching emotions
As decayed lives litter the place....

Those silent eyes,wide with fright.......
The tormenting silence after the storm.....
Emasculated courage, shaken spirits...
Forbidden by fear,
Forsaken by saviors.....
As the scrimmage for survival,
Dissolves in the dense grey smoke.....

They lie in shock
Bathed in the streams of blood.....
As havoc laughs
At the dismembered minds.....
At the violence stained faces....
At the pain soaked cries.....

The stench of death
Nauseating the senses...
The bone chilling memory
Of witnessing the mass slaughter....
Taking away, every other dream.....
Leaving behind no love,
Happiness, or ray of hope....

Just the painful sighs....
Just the weeping eyes......
As screams for help darken the skies....
As haunting prayers beg for mercy.......
As terror quietens every voice
Enclosing the spaces to breathe...

The cornered souls
Shrouding in fear......
An easy prey to the hungry hounds....
Frantically seek for shadows to hide.....
Won over by the diabolic knight.....

The Drenched Soul......

The warmth of the first drop
Like a caressing finger drawn
Across the glowing countenance......
As the wind hushes every other sound,
And the clouds blanket the sun....
Those expectant eyes,
With an ocean of darkness in them....
A pearl of hope shines out.....
The taste of nature tingles the senses....
As the softness of the drizzle,
Refreshes the lost spirit.......
The thunderous voice echoes her sigh.......
A bolt of lightning, and a tear.....
Both in a gentle flash....
And then the tinge of a smile........
Brightening the hues of the painting......
A splash of water from the gurgling brook,
The melancholy filled happiness....
An unheard whisper, a silent wish.....
The rain ushering rejuvenated desires within....
The scent of the earth melts the knot of pain....
A love for the unknown savior's touch.....
The floating leaves take away with them
A message to the unseen paradise......
The water enthralls the dormant passions....
The awe inspiring rain drenches her soul......
As the unspoken delight tickles her eyes,
She opens her arms and embraces the skies....