Effigy...

I grope
In the dead of darkness
For the voice
I once sought
To be my own...
Hazy silhouettes
From several lives ago
Dance into the vanishing horizon
As a forlorn melody
Plays to the spasms
Of my singeing soul....
You stand there smiling
Drenched in the rain
While I burn noiselessly
Amidst the floating remains...
I can't be sure
If it's the curtain of dawn
Or the beckon of dusk
For time has long given up
On the thought of me....
As I continue to stare
Into a reality
Sewn together
From handpicked illusions....
And I draw
With the kiss of my finger
Wispy outlines
Of your effigy....

And I write for you again....

As the dawn arrests
The virginity of this night
I soothe my listless nerves
With incoherent musings
That remain scattered
Somewhere in the sheaves
Of all that I've left broken
In our silences
And I write for you again....
Relieved from the leash
Of those unmagical promises
That desperate hearts
Tend to make...
While I quiver with the thirst
I never managed to quench
After your first touch....
And as I wander
Into the forests
Of musical reminiscence
I hear your heartbeat
Dancing to the tunes
Of my unfinished breath...
And I sigh, a smiling murmur
As I write for you again.....

Two Cups of Tea...

Two cups of tea

A blink

And a whisper...

It falls

A drop of the sky's broken heart

Into my half filled glass....

As I wait into the night

Staring at your memory

Sitting beside me...

It's mossy now

The greyness

Of this empty bench stone...

Yet my face warms up

Your steaming breath

I inhale, with wisps of caffeine...

Enough. A cigarette

To choke down little lives

Crystallized with the sugar

That line the rim of your cup...

I walk away

While your glass

Stares at my back...

Cause even when you're alone

You always have to pay.

For two.

I Lie Awake....

Drowsy and drunk,
Your voice cracks
The shielding case of my slumber
As you sing to me
Of love lost
My eyes mist,
While you drown yourself
In surreal affection....
You are unaware of the downpour
Yet we both know
The vessel of bliss
Shall forever remain empty...
You sing your songs, nevertheless
And with a passion
You must seldom have fathomed yourself
Interspersed
With uneven, shattered shards of lust...
And in moments astray
They walk back to me
Down a lane, lost sight of,
Never forgotten,
And tease my consciousness alive....
While I lie awake
Recreating your pictures
In my mind's eye...
With colours of numbness
On a bed of faded memories,
Like a bonded, listless ritual
To myself, I lie.....

Mind Games...

Concrete spaces
Hollow Earth.
A vagabond of sorts
Crisscrossing directions
With brittle momentum...
Innocent eyes
Gazing across
Through putrid wisps...
Mundane stares
As the pawn dares
Seeking ground
Before the king...
Angry yellow
Flashes, of Chaos
An interplay
With the vivid silence
Of mind games....

I just want to love you for a day....

Deep into your eyes
I will condense my passion...
Right into your soul
Will I rub the ashes
Of my singeing heart...
Closer to my breath
Will I draw your shivering being
For I just want to love you for a day.....
With a tenderness I've never known
Let me lock away those tresses
That cloud your countenance
And play across my strings...
As I run across the fields
That spread from your nape
And trap your giggles
In the nooks of my memory
For I just want to love you for a day.....
As the gurgling streams
Of untamed yearning
Meander through the inches
Of my fixated body...
Let me ensnare you in my arms
And take over your life
As a lost chapter of my own
For I just want to love you for a day......

There I am....

There I am

Hidden somewhere

In a hundred pages

Torn edges

Of tender memories....

Dripping from those corners

Are blissful nothings

I spent, basking

In the shy glimpses

You blew my way

With the silence of your hazel eyes.....

There lurks somewhere

The makings of a We

From a You and Me

In blatant blue

Written uncertainly

Then crossed out

Erroneous in a zephyr of emotion.....

Folded away, tattered I lie

In your desperate attempts

To look away

Yet there always stand out

Beneath scribbled mundane

Pages you wish you never tore....

There I am

Waiting for you...