Insomniac...

The soothing sweetness of a distant lullaby
Ringing in my ears...
The cool breeze ruffling my hair
Like the gentle caress of a mother...
The moon tries to warm my soul
With its passionately soft glow...
Yet the turmoil continues in the mind..
The heart writhes in pain...
I can't even cry...
Will the eyes allow me to?
I lie numb, like a corpse
Allowing myself to brood
Over the darkest side of me...
A twist, a turn
While I force myself to lose consciousness
But the mind rejects the calm...
Turning the pages of books
With the glassy blankness in the eyes...
Gazing out of the window in vain...
I fail to distract my thoughts...
I fail, to run away from them...
They victoriously haunt me...
And the world around looks cold, mirthless
Blanketing me with the fear of the unknown
Such a storm tormenting my existence...
Yet the night mocks at me with serenity...
Its time they smile, while I cry...
Its time, they rest in peace
Satisfied with the agony
Of my restless soul...
Another turn....sit up...and lie down...
I sigh, coz I can't scream
Yet again, I dwell in a phantasm
A night without dreams...
With the mind in a stupor
The choking emotions...
The silently killing, drowsy darkness...
Yet again....with a traumatized soul...
I lie...without sleep...

Setting Free.....

The remains of the once scented rose....
The silent blush over smiling memories....
All well buried, well hidden.....
I take back that childish assertiveness,
I withdraw that hand
I expected you to hold.....
Lovingly killing every consolidated emotion
Beautified with time....
But now dead and decaying....
Won't let anyone scavenge on my feelings...
Taking back every little moment that we called "ours"
Let them be mine alone, now, and forever....
Disintegrating every thought involving you...
I wish to be immune to love...
The numb feeling, itself giving me the resistance...
I shut my ears to the sounds
The sounds of laughter shared...
I refuse to look back at the tears
We wiped, for one another
They will,of course, remind me of you....
I stop my search for love....
I satisfy my thirst for care, with coldness.....
I refuse to recognize that short lived soul,
Who felt and lived with the most cherished emotion
And used my mortal body to dwell....
Those days, I remove
From the flashbacks of my life...
Which emasculate me,
Obstructing my view beyond.....
I lived, I loved, as much as life wished me to
No more, this pain I will bear....
I desert my wants for a comforting shoulder....
I strangle that human need....
As I attempt my love, to let you go...
As I attempt, to set you free.....

The Journey Of A Soul....

On this dusty path he stands,
Right here,at the very beginning
Trying to look beyond the visible....
And as he begins to travel,
The deceiving obstacles
Roll into his way
Like unwanted companions of the journey....
"Are you sure you wish to tread this path?" ,says one
"Know you not,what lies ahead?"
And there builds a loud of doubt....
But he does manage
To disperse the thought
"I think not of tomorrow, but of today
And that's what makes
All the difference to me...."
"You wish, my man, have your way"
And the first companion walks away
He moves further,
But fate doesn't leave him alone for long
Yet another seemingly "well" wisher,
Comes forward to walk along
"I'll stroll with you my friend
I'll take you to a world of friendly souls
You can laugh, you will rejoice
You can share your tears
You will pick up a smile
But how do you plan to look beyond
When the time will come
To leave these emotions behind?"
The temptation to stay,
To stop right there
Entices the young soul...
Yet the strength of will
Overtakes the momentary desires
"Learning to relish the present
And facing every facet of life
Is what I wish to be all about"
"Your will,my friend, move ahead....."
A turn of life,
A taste of success,
And yet again
A mate passes his way
"You have done well young man
Its time you sit back and make merry
Your success is sure to last for a lifetime
Be content, won't you?"
But life has taught him better
"To be ensconced wherever I am,
Is to kill the desire of being human
Taking yet another step
Is what makes life worth living for me..."
"Your choice,young soul
Move on and pave your path further"
And the soul takes yet another obstacle in his stride
All of them,together say
"Stop not,O brave heart!
Move,and the world will be moved with your views
Coz you are a part of this world
And the world is a part of you...."