Illusions

As solitude surrounds me,
I shut my eyes,
To feel the simple bliss in the moment
And there builds an image
Undoubtedly, I know what it is
I know, who it is
There you are, just before my eyes
Some mischief hidden in your lovely smile
I smile too, your presence provokes me
There you are, holding out your hand
I extend mine, too amazed for words
And in a flash, reality wakes me
"You love to dream," the mind scorns
I smile again
"Oh yes! I do," I say
I enjoy seeing my desires take shape
Oh yes, I love this illusion
Its true, I love to dream
" Do you really?" chirps the heart
"You simply love to feel"
"Oh so true you speak!" I say
I love to feel my life
I extend my hand
And pray to feel that touch
But though reality plays with me,
I content myself with the mirage
I feel that beautiful presence
And so,all I'll say is
Indeed, I love to feel
And there, the mind mocks again
"How will the world look at your eccentricity?
How will you defend your imaginary obsession?"
To you, my dear mind I have something to convey
I care not, what the world sees me as
The world cant satisfy me, the soul
The heart is what I persuade
With these illusions, with these images
Oh my gentle heart! Will you for once see
How pure my love really is?
Not with pride, not with vanity
But built with the simplest of emotions
A block of trust, I placed at first
A handful of happiness I sprinkled
A tinge of liveliness, here and there
A shower of the spirit to share
And to all this, I added
Some satisfaction, some comfort
Some security, some authority
And there stands my monument
I still beautify it with my passion
The world says,what belongs to the heart is beautiful
I ask you, my dear heart
Will you lend my love some of your glory?
Will you accept my love as your own?
And as the question hangs in the air
The heart quietens for a while
And then it says, "I see what you show
Oh how can I possibly say no?
Your monument of love, your life
I accept
All I can possibly say is
I'm glad to see, O simple soul
That you sincerely love to love!"

The Question Of Existence

In one small corner of this spherical world
I lie awake
When the drowsy darkness overtakes the conscious
With an anxious mind
A tormented heart
And a questioning soul
"Why was I made?
Am I of any purpose?
I sense nothingness
Why was I given this tasteless life?
Work humans do for satisfaction
Tires them
Pleasure makes them indifferent
Comfort gives each one, a false sense of security
And so I see,it happens with me
Is this my past's fate?
Was this what I was supposed to do?
Am I a need?
Am I a desire?
Why in this world full of uncountable souls
Was another little ordinary spirit born?
Why, oh why, do I exist?
The gentleness of the night caresses me
The wind seems to wrap me in an embrace
The twinkling stars smile at me
And i feel my world speaking
"You were born to be yourself
To live up to what you are today
Yes, there is more in store
But everything that you call your past now
Happened to make the journey of your life stable
You are a dream
A dream of a woman
Whose womb gave you your body
You are happiness
Happiness for a girl
For whom you are indispensable
You are pride
Pride for a man who fathered you
You are love
Love for someone
Who means the world to you
You are a friend
Whose care, everyone likes to cherish
You are a human being
Made to prove the existence of humanity in this world
You are someone God promised to many
Somewhere as a daughter, somewhere as a sister
As a friend, as a lover
As a strength, as a support
As a dream, as an expectation
As a need, as a desire
Yes, you have a purpose in this world
You live your life, not for yourself
But for the many others
Whose lives you constitute
You are, above all, God's creation
In the most beautiful form you could get
Speechless with the simple truth
I wonder how i have been answered
But yes, I am satisfied
With the simple beauty of the answer
The answer to the question of my existence.....

The Choice To Love

Below the inky blue darkness of the sky
She stares across the calm terrain
As if,visualizing her life in the scenery
Her glassy eyes speak of her trance
Her mind engrossed
In thoughts,
In dreams,
In desires,
Mingled with every emotion
The soothing breeze caresses her hair
Reminding her of her longing
The gentleness of the wind
Carries with it, a touch
A warm content in a moment's gaze
Filled with a growing affection
She smiles, and with such grace
As the glowing rose petals
In the wash of the moonlight
The silence of the night whispers in her ears
She listens to the voice of the heart
Her mind enjoying the tingling sensation
Of the melancholy music of the night
She senses her spirit pushing her on
To gather her courage
A courage to love
And for once,not crush her desires
But her mind sees another world
The night sky, so silent, so serene
Yet saddened by the timeless longing
To unite with its mirror,the sea
They gaze at each other for eternity
Wanting to cherish the love they have
For each other, through countless ages
Yet all they can do
Is live on,helplessly
Their desires hidden within themselves
"Is it so?"questions her heart
"Do the skies not meet their loving reflector
At the stretch of the horizon?
Do they not enjoy the privilege
Of having their beloved before them forever?
Does the sea not delight itself
With the pleasure of reflecting its love
On its own beautiful expanse?"
"Its a matter of vision",the girl finally decides
See from the eyes of rationale
And emotions seem immature
Yet look again, from the eyes of your heart
You have your desires fulfilled
Your love with you, in you
"Yes",she says, some soothing satisfaction
Enthralling her spirit
"I choose to live with my desires unfolded
And see my world through my heart"
"Yes",she says
"I choose to love....."

Nature

Nature-our mother
There is so much to learn
So much to feel
So much to understand in her ways

The little spider crawling there
Among the leafless shrubs
With tireless spirit and lots of pain
It weaves its intricate web
Glistening in the sunlight
But Oh!There snaps a cord
There breaks a thread
Its world partly destroyed
By a thorn here
And a strong breeze there
Nevertheless it faces its fate
Moves on and recreates its world
Leaving its past abandoned
All with the help of its strength
To move on,and start afresh

Nature-our mother
There is so much to learn
So much to feel
So much to understand in her ways

A tiny caterpillar
Camouflaging with the green leaves
Of a rain-bathed plant
Prepares itself
To build around itself
A lovely house of silk threads
It waits in its coccoon for long
To grow and turn into a beautiful butterfly
All this pain,all this hard work
Merely for a two-day lifespan of beauty
Yet it does not stop living
Why?It is bestowed with such a life
By its very own mother Nature
It accepts its destiny without question

Nature-our mother
There is so much to learn
So much to feel
So much to understand in her ways

A huge rose shrub
Sits in a garden
Adorned both by beauty and pain
This lovely shrub
Faces every emotion
Pride, in the beauty of its roses
Happiness,in the awe of its spectators
Protection, in the presence of its thorns
Shame, in its infliction of pain
Upon its patrons,who desire to cherish its scented pride
And pain,sheer pain
When its loveable roses are plucked
Imparting to it,the lesson
That beauty does not always remain
There sits the rose shrub
Apparently lifeless
Yet filled with so much of emotion

Nature is our mother
And the greatest teacher
There is so much to learn
So much to feel
So much to understand in her ways....

Something Never Meant To Be

As plain and simple as she was
She never thought it would happen
Her little heart fluttered
It skipped beats now and then
The soaring feeling of happiness
Butterflies in the stomach
And smiling thoughts
But through all this she never knew
She was thinking of something
That was never meant to be
Her eyes lay on various things
Yet that one thought
Always provoking her heart and mind
"I am not made for all this",she said
But her little eyes built up big dreams
Her subconscious emotions
Inciting the softest feeling
In her hard core personality
Yet through all this,she never knew
She was thinking of something
That was never meant to be
And when she finally accepts what has happened to her
The reality bumps with her dream filled world
An astonishing crash
Was that the noise
Of her little heart breaking?
With painful tears, she mourns
As she realizes
That she was thinking of something
That was never meant to be...

A New Morning

One moment,life just does'nt seem enough
Another moment,and the path looks never ending
There's the dawn, spreading a faint and rosy light
Yet a darkness remains, engulfing like a fog
I strain to look beyond it
Will I be able to embrace
The welcoming rays of the Sun?
There I see pigeons flocking together
All alike, all grey
Yet among them perches a white,
Silent, and solitary, with a searching look....
Serene is the morning,calm and quiet
Yet I hear strange voices...
Can I quieten my restless soul?
A light breeze plays with the little dewy leaves,
All look fresh, renewed with life
Yet there stands a loner sapling,
Seeming as if stuck in its past
Its Autumn mood not gone
Its dry leaves challenging the breeze
With a painful fluttering movement...
Will I be able to shed my past,
And move on to cherish a day of the Spring?
I sit there,answerless and searching.....
And slowly,a lovely warmth sinks in me
Out of the fog,there is the Sun
After many-a- wintry night,
I see the passionate glow again
The light of my life
Yes, there it is....
A smile plays across my face
As out of the blue, I recall that tender voice
The herald of the day rises
And there dawns a new morning in my life
The fog fades,I see a world more clear
But again, the brightness triggers the mind
Wont my day end into a night?
"So what?" he says,
"There's another day ahead
And forget not, the Sun is always there
It is your world
That turns away from it for a while....."
Simple though it is,
The thought has a radiant touch
Still smiling, I look at my Sun
And move on.....

All I want

The tears, their flow refuses to stop
The eyes sting and burn
The face is stained with streams of tear droplets.
I wonder , when I’ll be happy
When I’ll be relieved from the pain ,
When the emptiness will be filled ,
When my loneliness will be driven away.
All I want , is to live
All I want , is to enjoy my gifts
All I want , is to feel light

All I want , is to laugh in the bright sunlight
All I want , is to cherish the moments
The moments I spend with my loved ones
All I want , is a fairytale end to my problems
But Alas! We ourselves
Have to make our wishes come true
But I really don’t know what to do
I stand,
Amidst the crowd of strangers
On an unknown path in this strange world .

The only option , is to move on .
I feel the necessity to pass the barriers
The milestones on this path
But it hurts sometimes
To know that I’m left alone
Or I will be.
But digesting the bitter truth
Is the best I can do .
I have to move alone
And in the right direction

For all I can gain
Is only by moving on
If I leave the right path
There is no count of what I’ll lose
I know I can do it
All I want , is a hand to caress my head
Which will make me feel
That nothing can go wrong
All I want , is an arm around my shoulder
Which will be the greatest action of comfort
All I want , is a shoulder on which I can cry

When the path becomes bumpy and rough
All I want , is a hug
Which will take my worries away in no time
All I want , is an open heart
In which I can pour out my troubles
All I want , is that I get whatever I want
I wish ,that my wishes come true…