A Writer's Dream....

I often find myself,

In the middle of crowded crossroads.....

Misted by opinions,

And advices blown into my eyes....

So that I see,

What the world wants me to see.....

It is then that I decide,

To rub and open my eyes....

Its then that I choose,

To take my own direction....

But towers of obligations,

Try to seize my rights....

My right to be me...

Its then that I stand,

Up and against that,

Which binds me to compromise,

On my needs, my desires.....

When they say move aside,

I take my stand, not to defy,

But to make my point.....

It is as wrong to violate,

As it is to tolerate violation.....

When they ask me to keep low,

For the blindly respected beings.....

I raise my voice,

Not as an altercation,

But to criticize the loopholes of equality....

When they say, "Present your defence"

I take it as an offence,

That I must need statements,

To prove my identity.....

I'm sized by angry eyes.....

And hushed by sneering voices......

Pushed behind by hostile shoulders.....

So that the truth may be left to rot,

In the crevices of thick books......

But I will rise everytime I fall.......

I will speak for my voiceless comrades......

I will stand for that which is just.....

I will write, to move, to change.....

And one day the echoes,

Of my voice, my words

Will rejuvenate kindred souls

To fulfil, a writer's dream.......

Forever And For Always....

When I think of you,

It seems to me,

Like the world takes a pause....

To let me recall,

Your innocent laughter......

The moist breeze of the first monsoon,

Birngs me your breath......

And I take it in.......

I make it my own......

When I chuckle aloud,

With the toss of my head,

The unconscious moves

Stroke my hair gently.......

I sense the eyes,like those of a doe,

Watching me from somewhere.........

And I blush like the first rose of spring.......

As I feel your warm gaze,

Caressing the nape of my neck.......

When the glistening drops of gloom,

Find their way into my eyes,

I look at my refelection.....

And I see your calmed countenance......

Healing my soul with a smile......

Whispering words of wonder,

That embrace my fragile heart......

Never letting it slip........

Never letting it break.........

When success will bow at my feet,

I'll look into the crowd of cheers,

And these eyes will seek yours.....

Sparkling like none other....

With genuine happiness and care.........

And it will be on such days,

When I'll get the golden chance to say,

This is my man, my love, my life......

Who has made me what I am today.......

When I think of you my love,

No words can express,

What I wish to articulate.......

My heart reaches out to yours,

In special moments like these........

In silent, miraculous ways........

And I know you are there.......

Full of life, full of love........

Holding me in your strong arms,

Forever and for always.....

For you, Superman....

Fake......

Your eyes, they will see in me,

A broken dream...

As I hold in my hands,

The remains of my strings of belief......

The beads of hope,

Scattering, slipping out of sight.......

Like the receding rays of sunlight.......

Leaving me in darkness........

My tears will not speak,

Of the chances I failed to get......

But of the precious times,

When I failed my chances.....

The frozen sting,

Still makes me numb......

I now see where I stand......

How far I always stood...........

From the reaches of your heart.......

The muted memories of my helplessness,

Give me the picture you framed.....

Mauled by your grey eyes....

And I lost my meaning......

I dared to speak,

But the hearing is done......

The judgment is passed......

I plead with thee,

To know what went wrong.....

Where I fell out of the way.......

But I'm to be left unheard,

And as my will is choked,

With the noose of silence,

I'm tainted as a fake.....

And I fall in love again.....

The soft tickle of your warm breath....

The aroma of sentiments,

Filling the air....

Content diffused in giggles.....

The ruffle of your hair,

Against the rose of my cheek.....

And I fall in love again.....

Your fingers entangled with mine..

The syrup of your desires,

Quenching my thirst.....

The beads of happiness,

Welling in the depths....

Of the soft brown of your eyes.....

And I fall in love again.....

Our thoughts dissolved,

In the stillness of time...

As moonlight dances,

Sprinkling drops of grace,

On your elegant countenance.....

As you draw your hand across mine...

With a smile full of selfless care......

And I fall in love again.....

With the lingering freshness,

Of your overwhelming kiss....

With the gentleness,

Of your healing caress.......

With the sanctum I find,

In your assuring presence..

With the love I cherish,

In the innocence of your soul....

I fall in love again,

As I rediscover my God in you.......

Dedicated to my Superman.....

Stoic....

Threads of thoughts,

Knotted in unwanted bonds....

Eyes of stone gazing aimlessly

Lost lustre, dead and cold....

The choking butterfly,

Strangled in the spider's web.......

Torn wings, voiceless pain.....

Oh mutated soul,

Release the rein!

Overwhelmed skies, wary and grey,

Relentlessly shed tears.....

But smoking fires don't melt iron......

Yet the heart fears that touch......

The fragile bird of song,

Tethered to the chains of freedom.......

Ashes of darkness,

Rubbed in as a remainder,

Of that haunted daylight.....

Yet the chilling frost,

Was once some tender drops of dew.....

There were colors of smiles,

In the wounded rose....

Now lying mutilated.....

The scatter of petals,

Still whisper the unspoken.....

That hides behind the stolidity

Of this mystic statue.....

Wrinkled by the winds of time.....

Moulded in the cast,

Of a silent stoic.....

Beside Me,Inside Me.....

The gentle glow of your pristine soul,

Delighting my senses ,

Like the scent of fresh lilies.....

A collage of memories,

Like the leaves of autumn

Falling around me,

Engulfing me,in their playful embrace........

I take refuge,

In the coziness of your love cushioned heart...

I bask in the warmth of your care......

Your tender voice soothing my mind........

Like a long forgotten lullaby.........

The strength of your presence,

Beside me,inside me......

Shielding me from those belittling eyes.......

Your hand on my shoulder,

And I can face the world blind.....

'Cause you're just a thought away......

A look at your confidence,

And I can proudly say,I live,I survive

You light the flame of life in me......

The trust in your eyes,

And I know I am someone....

Your words caressing my spirits,

Like a soft kiss on my forehead.........

Your understanding silence

Opening the rusted gates,

And showing me a world,

Where I can be what I dream.......

I turn around and smile,

At that familiar silhouette beaming at me.......

I know you are there,

I know you will always be.......

Dedicated to my dada...

on his birthday...20th of october,2008

I love you...

Identity...

A silent satire,

Garnished with some sad humor

Strikes my mind.....

As I walk into living glamour,

Wondering what strings

Reign these painted puppets,

Dancing to the rhythm of conventions....

Flaunting their desperation to glitter.....

And doing so,with pride!

What but a puff of smoke,

Guarding their unstable status.....

What but the last glass of wine,

Making them knights in shining armour!

A greedy gleam marks each eye......

Many a sadist thought

Concealed in those false-sweet smiles......

I ponder over stifled sighs......

Exhausted with the unseen bonds....

Caging the freedom,

Of expressing yourself

To a horde of taunting jeers.......

I can't help but smile,

At the struggle they have to face

To meet the true eye.......

The preferred trend is to turn blind......

When trouble nags thy neighbour....

Wipe your hands clean

When you decently commit a crime......

Embellish a wrong deed of that stranger

But when it comes to oneself,

Its not worth giving it your time.....

Dilution is the key

To triumph over emotions.....

Practicality is the mask,

For the insensitive minds......

And then they come and ask me,

"What is your identity?

What have you done

To seek and prove your capabilities?"

I laugh on their stunned faces,

Till tears fill my eyes...

And tell them," You see my friends,

This is where my identity lies...."

Revenge.....

Touch me like the barbed rose,

Slide your fingers

Let them sink in my veins.....

Draw me close....

Pull me tight...

Choke me with the noose

Of the poisoned obsession,

Gleaming in your eyes.....

Smell my skin and take me in.....

With the hunger of the white vice.....

Devour my emotions

And lick the last tear......

Does it satiate your animal?

Your madness cannot stain my spirit...

Tear me apart

And the blood will be frozen.....

The flesh decayed....

My body has long lost

The vigour of life....

Its the haunted cadaver you relish.....

The strings are broken

Your music can't deafen my mind.... 

The last breath is taken

No more can you rejoice my pain.....

The soul has been unleashed

You helpless scavenger....

It flies,chastised into the skies.....

Now you look on with blinding rage

While I rise high

And chuckle at your cries.......

Unheeded Cries......

Like a sapling treasured in a seed,

I wait eagerly to sprout....

And spread my wings.....

My little hands rise in need

A desire for love and care....

Bubbling in my fresh blood.......

Every nascent heartbeat

Whispers a want for existence...

A dream to see,

And breathe free...

Stumbling and falling and learning,

Little by little.

Bits of this wonderful thing

Your world calls life......

But this hurts,

This pains mommy

Do you hear?

The music is slowing......

I am trying to hold on......

I wish I could feel you sooner.....

But it refuses to let me go......

Why is my world fading?

You want to know how I look,

Is it your face or daddy's eyes?

You want to adore my giggles

You want to comprehend my babble

Don't you mommy?

I want to love you too

And hide my face in your chest......

Cause this scares me

You will heed to my cries,won't you?

You promised,to stand by every breath

And nurture my soul

But I am falling....

I still don't see you lift me up.......

Mommy,it's getting darker!

Pull me back,before I drown

Mommy,help me,won't you?

Oh no! Mommy,it's you?

Seeking An Answer......

As nostalgia hits,

The instinctive knot in the throat develops

And the weight of emotions 

Gently reflected in the clouded skies,

The flow of tears as smooth as the rain

The best and the worst of the past 

Come back in the slow walk through the fields.....

A hesitation seems to hurdle the sight 

As he tries to turn back....

The memories linger even when all is gone.....

The want of leaving,yet the need of staying behind......

A desire to shatter as easily as the heavens....

An attempt to pull himself back into place from that,

Which can never come back

Trying to leave the comfort in the trance....

The voice doesn't find space

Seeking for something,someone to answer

The heart burning questions......

Struggling with himself,

Wanting to leave a part of him behind,

But in vain.......

A want to step into the past 

And satisfy the restlessness......

Of whatever remains...

But nothingness shuns him

As the lines are drawn....

The ability to move and move on 

Seems to dissolve in the rains.....

As he stands motionless

Waiting to be answered......

Terror....

Shattered houses, broken glass....
Voicing those dreaded tales....
Ruins of roads,
Paths through a graveyard........
The burnt flesh wrenching emotions
As decayed lives litter the place....

Those silent eyes,wide with fright.......
The tormenting silence after the storm.....
Emasculated courage, shaken spirits...
Forbidden by fear,
Forsaken by saviors.....
As the scrimmage for survival,
Dissolves in the dense grey smoke.....

They lie in shock
Bathed in the streams of blood.....
As havoc laughs
At the dismembered minds.....
At the violence stained faces....
At the pain soaked cries.....

The stench of death
Nauseating the senses...
The bone chilling memory
Of witnessing the mass slaughter....
Taking away, every other dream.....
Leaving behind no love,
Happiness, or ray of hope....

Just the painful sighs....
Just the weeping eyes......
As screams for help darken the skies....
As haunting prayers beg for mercy.......
As terror quietens every voice
Enclosing the spaces to breathe...

The cornered souls
Shrouding in fear......
An easy prey to the hungry hounds....
Frantically seek for shadows to hide.....
Won over by the diabolic knight.....

The Drenched Soul......

The warmth of the first drop
Like a caressing finger drawn
Across the glowing countenance......
As the wind hushes every other sound,
And the clouds blanket the sun....
Those expectant eyes,
With an ocean of darkness in them....
A pearl of hope shines out.....
The taste of nature tingles the senses....
As the softness of the drizzle,
Refreshes the lost spirit.......
The thunderous voice echoes her sigh.......
A bolt of lightning, and a tear.....
Both in a gentle flash....
And then the tinge of a smile........
Brightening the hues of the painting......
A splash of water from the gurgling brook,
The melancholy filled happiness....
An unheard whisper, a silent wish.....
The rain ushering rejuvenated desires within....
The scent of the earth melts the knot of pain....
A love for the unknown savior's touch.....
The floating leaves take away with them
A message to the unseen paradise......
The water enthralls the dormant passions....
The awe inspiring rain drenches her soul......
As the unspoken delight tickles her eyes,
She opens her arms and embraces the skies....

To You,My Love....

A shy ray of light
Dancing across the idyllic countenance.....
A silent giggle of the breeze
Ruffling the thick black mane.....
As I gently look on
And rejoice this beauty I own.....

I wonder where the magic lies
Is it in those dreamy eyes?
Or in the softness of that touch?
In the mischief of that playful chuckle,
That delights my senses so much?
I stare and ponder in serenity....
And relish the childish simplicity......

The petals of rose that make those lips....
Like living emotions pouted.....
So admirable in picture,so desirable to kiss.....
That smile enthralling my soul undoubted.....
I let the world revolve around my wants
With tears of content,I look on.....

Its beyond words,
The alchemy of your love.....
That purges my heart,
Like a melody unheard.....
The warm comfort of your arms
The gorgeous rouge of that blush......
Those entangled fingers in my hair
An embrace overwhelmed with your innocent care.......

If I were offered an everlasting wish
All I would ask ,my love, is this......
O life, let these moments remain and live....
Not just as an old, fading memory,
But as a true, eternal bliss.......

Sing Me A Song....

As the drizzle tickles my senses
And the thrill runs down my spine.....
I look above at the overwhelmed skies
And relish your innocent smile.....

I wish to drown in your melodious delight
Embrace your tunes with my arms spread wide.....
And dance to the rhythm of the beats of our hearts.....
In the thunderous music of this night......

Sing for me, a song
That will make me lose myself
In the mystique of your eyes.....
Shower me with your boundless love
Unravel in me,the threads of silence
Let loose that passion in disguise.....

Let our unspoken emotions rhyme
Let our spirits run astray......
Making each breath shallow and soft.....
Embodying desires wild....
As clouds hover above, in mischief
Chuckling at this marvelous sight.....

Your voice rejuvenates my longing
And seals every unhealed wound......
The vibrations play with the strings of my heart
And your descant enchants my mind.....

As the rain drenches our kindred souls
I celebrate you, my life.....
So sing for me, a song my love....
Won't you sing for me tonight?

Hidden...

When the lights go dim
And the music fades....
I lie on my cushion of thoughts
Blanketed by boundless fears.....
In a world so colourless,
That the eyes seek solace
In the void of darkness......

The mind plays with illusions
Painting the abstract
With colours unseen...
Leading desires to the devil's snare....
I wipe off the blood invisible
Staining my hands forever......
Sole witnesses of the murder
Of fragile, pure innocence....

Yet frantic attempts go vain
The brutal scars remain....
Shouting out my unspoken pain
In a room full of deaf listeners.......
I stand unguarded......
With naked and betrayed feelings
Refusing to clothe my senses.......
With the threads of hope
Bitten and broken
By moths of reality.....

The masks of sanity
Grinning, as the last straw
Tends to slip out of sight.....
Spotlight of countless accuses
Burning my insides......
As I grope in nothingness
Like a fall from a cliff
Of refreshed horror......
So long the fall....
Like there is no ending....

And then fly the sparks.....
The lights are out
Another cut on the flesh of emotions.....
Reviving the numbness
I lose myself
And relish the sizzle of red....
That replaces the tears
The tears that dried...
I smile senselessly
At the merciless wounds I hide....